Gone.
I am not sure why I am still awake, or even functioning for that matter. It seems like my world is fallin apart and there is nothing I can do to stop it.
How can one person become so much a part of you? How can they either make everything better, or everything worse?
I don't understand how some as independent as I am has become so needy when it comes to him.
I just want things to be normal again.
I want to feel whole.
I want to start over.
I need sleep. I need hydration, I think I just cried out all water that was in me.
I need someone to hold me all night long, but that someone isn't here. And that someone might not want to be holding me right now. And I can't change that. God, how I wish that I could.
Maybe it is all just a phase. Maybe it all go away soon.
Either way I am crushed right now. All of me has gone away, and I don't feel alright.
I was getting so much stronger, things were looking up. And now I am broken.
How can one person become so much a part of you? How can they either make everything better, or everything worse?
I don't understand how some as independent as I am has become so needy when it comes to him.
I just want things to be normal again.
I want to feel whole.
I want to start over.
I need sleep. I need hydration, I think I just cried out all water that was in me.
I need someone to hold me all night long, but that someone isn't here. And that someone might not want to be holding me right now. And I can't change that. God, how I wish that I could.
Maybe it is all just a phase. Maybe it all go away soon.
Either way I am crushed right now. All of me has gone away, and I don't feel alright.
I was getting so much stronger, things were looking up. And now I am broken.