thinking......
so i was waiting for kaycie to call me back and just laying on my bed thinking about shit. i decided im offically waiting for shaggy to get back. and im gunna forget about all those others guys...mikie and deffinitly FUCK J-MO he pissed me off for the last time, sure he didnt do anything huge, it just made me realize somthing huge...i dont want to be with a person like him. hes just not my type. i doubt he could deal with me anyways, like all the little tests prove, im probably much too (×)emo(×) for him and he'd break up with me bc im too weird. another thing i realized when i was laying on my bed was that it isnt worth it liking some one (andrew) so much when hes totally obsessed with another girl (anna). so im waiting for <3SHAGGY<3 none of this other flirty bull shit. im done with it. i dont think i really even liked andrew that much anyways, hes just hott...story of my life huh? *hes just hott* im being all sad now bc i was listening to afi. who knows...maybe my dream guy will just walk through my front dor someday or somthing like that...i doubt it. but until then im waiting for saggy to get back, that IS the only guy i ever loved. and the only one that ever loved me, and told me, and showed it, and we never did more than hug...isnt that weird. and he's able to deal with all my emoness...becuase hes dealt with his, so mine would be no prob.
GREAT...now im gunna be like wishing everyday that he'll come back tomorrow. watch him not even come back. oh well....in Haras' words...."Shit, Nigga, Shit!"
im going to SXSW tonight with kaycie and damion...thats gunan be fucking badass. flogging molly's gunna be there, were going to either emo's or the backroom....im out. laterdays. ps...i know all of you know me and how i change DAILY so when all of these feelings change like tomorrow...dont remind me. even though im gunan try to keep feeling this way for a while. bye.<3
<33333shaggy<333333