I want my baby back.....ribs~~~?
ugh...today I discovered somthing that I knew, but didnt want to know. Actually now that I say that it makes me think of somthing (else) that i had no idea of, but makes sense of alot of stuff now, and really sucks. I'll say the second thing first...just because I found it out first (its easier to say that lunch really sucked today). Joanna and J-mo were talking about his wife and I was like what the hell (I dont think they knew I was listening, not that I wasnt supposted to be, I was standoing right there and talking to Chris and J-mo and Joanna were behind us a I got this outta what I herd) but yeah...they said somthing about Joannas cousin and J-mo's wife, then Jackie asked if they'd been going out for 'like ever' and J-mo was like nooo we were its only been like a month now. So basically, I put 2 and 2 together and hes back with Kacy, because about a month ago is when he stopped calling and getting online so much. Also when he 'changed' like I said in an earlier entry...so thats that, not that its bad...just not good I mean I didnt like him, I just would have started to (I'm a bad liar). On to the first thing that happend second in the day...like I said, its somthing I knew but didn't tell myself, which you're normal if that statement totally confuses you because you wouldn't understand it unless you understand the way my mind work...and thats like no one but Tash. Anyways...after I found that out about J-mo at lunch...he was standing across the student center looking at me and when I saw him I got that awesome smile I always got when we were together. Then I saw his girlfriend across the room sitting by another guy, and they're usually making out by the pay phones, so maybe they're over. If only that was true...my wishes are granted merley by his smile. The way he kisses me in front of everyone makes me feel like he doesnt care what other people say, or think. The way he grabs my hand and won't let go till both our arms are stretched to the fullest, then he gently lets his fingertips drift off mine...It's what I want and what I need, I didn't think it was when I had him. Now, I realize that something I did for my pride was one of the stupidest things I've ever done. Yeah Damion, including throwing whipped cream on the ceiling of IHOP. Now that thats out...my day consisted of these things that sucked...no I didnt get any kisses from this guy, thatd be a little much to ask...espically now. He did grab my hand though. Oh gawd, what the hell am I thinking he is probably still with that one hoe...my life offically sucks. I'm partly wising I still had Bryen, just to have someone. But damn...how can one guy try to be THAT controlling? I just find it impossible.............but then again these days, and in my life, what isn't? I think I'm gunna go to Hutto with Kylie somtime and snag me a Hutto guy, because obviously the ones here arent working for me. I sound sad and depressed and I hate that, even thinking like that, I'm stronger than this, really. I have fun and thats all I should think about is stuff like hanging out with my best friends and not ditching them because I might get to see the guy I like...I've been really stupid lately and it's killing me. I need to shut up and tell yall about me and Damion at IHOP... when I got to my moms school he called and asked if I wanted to do somthing b/c theyre baseball game got cancelled and they didnt have practice to he came to the house then my mom said she had to go talk to Ana Lisa in Liberity Hill (which would take 3 hours in all because everytime shes there she gets her hair and nails done) Dad's outta town (yet again) and Eric was at some trianing stuff for his new job. So me and Damion decided to go get some food, originally in Manor (mexican) but then we ended up in South Austin at the IHOP kinda by highland mall but not really after we picked up Kelby in Granger(?)... We got in trouble because we were being too loud (we met Kaycie and Colby there, and Kelby was alredy with us) then I got in trouble for throwing the whipped cream off of the community funny face pancake on the ceiling and it droppped into the seat of an empty booth behind us...it was so funny. Now Im going to sleep. Good-Night...............................................................................................
i <3 mikie