SAD DAY!
I think theres somthing wrong with me I keep throwing up...but I dont feel sick I just feel really full all the time and all Ive eaten today is some frosted flakes and a piece of cake stuff at church, the old ladies are poisioning me I bet. Im offically depressed again, Ive began to be able to tell by my dreams, if the house is there Im sad in my head, I may deny it but its the truth. Last night I had a dream that me Ian and Kylie were cousins and we were going on a cruise but you had to swim to the boat and get into a little rounded off door and I was wearing flip flops w/ some biggo socks like coach stansberry always wears then I was asking the people for extra pillows and stuff and I hadnt even been to the room...it was so weird and I kept sayn 'see yur my second cousin' to Ian...it was crazy. but I didnt get sad till today...I can tell bc of the house once again. but then after I got up and went to church...I prayed for Jay at church ;)...I came home and went to sleep and then when I was going to sleep thats when I got sad and I started crying and just went to sleep till lk 1:30 or so...then I ate some frosted flakes and went back to sleep till lk 3 and I dreamed that I was in that house and I was just laying on a couch with James...but it was lk I was beside him, it was a really big couch, it was so weird. then I woke up at 5 and started throwing up and ive thrown up 5 times in 32 mins...odd. but I still dont feel sick, just full and sad. maybe I wont have to go to school tomarrow...badass. Im going to lay on the bathroom floor bc im tired of getting up so much...I feel all weak now. Gawd this is weird. later.