happy fucking valentines day

[babysjournal]

let me be perfectly clear on this... I HATE VALENTINES DAY....i hate it in ways that i can't explain its only meant to make single people feel more inadequate which hey we do fine with on our own thanks so FUCK YOU HALLMARK. im sittine here quite buzzed and downing a bottle of wine, which should go nicely with the 5th of cheap whiskey i did earlier this evening, thank god for spellcheck eh? i hate this, i hate people i hate love i hate john, i hate not being in arizona i hate his family i hate my family and i hate that every guy i meet runs the minute that i say "my daughter" so...fuck them i hate men.........ok thats a lie and we all know it but what i really hate is missing john, i hate missing the asshole that doesnt want anything to do with his daughter, i hate knowing that i love him and 2 years later i can still lay in bed close my eyes and breathe deeply and feel him laying next to me, and thats where i feel the most at home....i hate him and i hate that i cant call him because i just want to scream all of this at him....im such a fuck up

happy fucking card day...assholes

kayla