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after 30 days of not drinking at all.....i drank for about 12 hours straight yesterday. that is a looooong time for me even when i am well seasoned, which i never am because i am a booze wuss. but yesterday i was a champion of whiskey. i had a great time with alicia in celebration of rocking the socks off of a year of anatomy and physiology. that shit was hard and i aced it. chemistry, also hard, aced! woohoo.
i feel like a turd today and i am not so happy about that. this is the problem with booze. it gets in the way of life. i have been looking forward to today for weeks. my idea was to have a peaceful day to clean the house and do some crafting. instead i am quite queazy and headachey. stupid.
booze is interesting. sneaky, kinda like cigarettes. i have never been a heavy drinker. in fact before i went on the 30 days off thing i was hardly drinking....BUT.....in my mnd drinking goes hand in hand with fun so if something social is going down i pretty much assume booze. it took me probably 3 out of the 4 weeks to be able to separate the 2 in my mind. i finally got there. got to a place where i no longer thought about boozing on the last day of school for relaxation, and actually liked thinking of being social without the crutch. i think i may strive for not over indulging in the booze at social gatherings from now on. in the last few weeks i have felt really healthy. i have been doing yoga and my desire to create, and be peaceful has been super strong. not to say that that was all because i stopped drinking, but drinking yesterday is totally getting in the way of my yoga and my peace today. i am not able to do the things that i was looking forward to. i don't regret yesterday at all. i had a blast and once in a while is fine. but i would just like to keep myself as levelheaded as possible throughout this summer. it feels so much better to me that way.
goal for the day is to nurse this hangover from this here bed and when it goes away (fingers crossed) get some cleaning done and reground. i like the ground. it is a good place to be.
i feel like a turd today and i am not so happy about that. this is the problem with booze. it gets in the way of life. i have been looking forward to today for weeks. my idea was to have a peaceful day to clean the house and do some crafting. instead i am quite queazy and headachey. stupid.
booze is interesting. sneaky, kinda like cigarettes. i have never been a heavy drinker. in fact before i went on the 30 days off thing i was hardly drinking....BUT.....in my mnd drinking goes hand in hand with fun so if something social is going down i pretty much assume booze. it took me probably 3 out of the 4 weeks to be able to separate the 2 in my mind. i finally got there. got to a place where i no longer thought about boozing on the last day of school for relaxation, and actually liked thinking of being social without the crutch. i think i may strive for not over indulging in the booze at social gatherings from now on. in the last few weeks i have felt really healthy. i have been doing yoga and my desire to create, and be peaceful has been super strong. not to say that that was all because i stopped drinking, but drinking yesterday is totally getting in the way of my yoga and my peace today. i am not able to do the things that i was looking forward to. i don't regret yesterday at all. i had a blast and once in a while is fine. but i would just like to keep myself as levelheaded as possible throughout this summer. it feels so much better to me that way.
goal for the day is to nurse this hangover from this here bed and when it goes away (fingers crossed) get some cleaning done and reground. i like the ground. it is a good place to be.