Sing for the love..and sing for the tears
Ahh the end of another vacation..Like how we got the blizzard that was sent to give us a snow a day too soon? Lovely.
Anyways let's see what's new..
Did the usual with Carrie and Abby this week and I've never been in so many hotels in my life, I mean I seriously tho I felt like I went on a real vacation since all we basically did was party at various hotels. I did have one random hookup but that was on Monday and well..no big deal, as they mostly always end up.
Well the countdown is on..it will be four years in about 3 weeks. Four years. Four years of crying, of wishing I was happy, of reminiscing about the better days, of living a surreal life where my teenage years were jerked from underneath me. I know if you are actually reading this, you see that last sentence and you're like.."she said she has no teenage years but I just read about her hotel escapades." Well, in truth I do have my teenage years and I have experienced them but if she was still alive, I would have seen everything through different eyes. I would have smiled more. I would have made more of myself. But apparently you can't do anything about that. You can't change the past.
But you can change the course your life is floating away aimlessly on. That's why I am..God I gained soo much weight over break seriously..I need to stop eating. And I'm going try to be happy? Gotta read Kahlil Gibran again lol..School tomorrow and I actually did my AP homework!
smiles for me.
Anyways let's see what's new..
Did the usual with Carrie and Abby this week and I've never been in so many hotels in my life, I mean I seriously tho I felt like I went on a real vacation since all we basically did was party at various hotels. I did have one random hookup but that was on Monday and well..no big deal, as they mostly always end up.
Well the countdown is on..it will be four years in about 3 weeks. Four years. Four years of crying, of wishing I was happy, of reminiscing about the better days, of living a surreal life where my teenage years were jerked from underneath me. I know if you are actually reading this, you see that last sentence and you're like.."she said she has no teenage years but I just read about her hotel escapades." Well, in truth I do have my teenage years and I have experienced them but if she was still alive, I would have seen everything through different eyes. I would have smiled more. I would have made more of myself. But apparently you can't do anything about that. You can't change the past.
But you can change the course your life is floating away aimlessly on. That's why I am..God I gained soo much weight over break seriously..I need to stop eating. And I'm going try to be happy? Gotta read Kahlil Gibran again lol..School tomorrow and I actually did my AP homework!
smiles for me.