the worst holiday ever invented.
i think every year i hate thanksgiving just a little bit more. i find it useless. we celebrate taking land and slaughtering the indigenous people and pretend we like everyone. i detest my family. my mother annoys the shit out of me, she is such a self rightcheos (butchered that word) bitch. my grandma is mean and depressing and i hate being up north. i just want to go home. ive been taking bars and shit this whole trip so im either half concious or asleep. havent had a smoke since god knows when. like 48 hours. i want the hell out of this place. apparantly the highlgith of my day tomorrow is sitting around this house and doing NOTHING. all i want is a motherfucking bowl and a cigarette and everyone to leave me the fuck alone.
my mother always becoems such a bitch. im not even allowed to walk down thew street because "im jist a child: fuck that shit, im 20 years old. ive had it with all of this. i want to go home. i should not have been forced to come here. and here comes the devil telling me im such a brat and blah blah. there is not a god damned thing to do here. i tried to get everyone to go see a movie tonight instead of just sitting around her with our thumbs in our asses staring at eachother. but no. they wouldnt even just drop me off to see a movie by myself. this is retarded. i have to find a way to have a smoke before my head pops
my mother always becoems such a bitch. im not even allowed to walk down thew street because "im jist a child: fuck that shit, im 20 years old. ive had it with all of this. i want to go home. i should not have been forced to come here. and here comes the devil telling me im such a brat and blah blah. there is not a god damned thing to do here. i tried to get everyone to go see a movie tonight instead of just sitting around her with our thumbs in our asses staring at eachother. but no. they wouldnt even just drop me off to see a movie by myself. this is retarded. i have to find a way to have a smoke before my head pops