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I don't even know how i'm doing. I feel like everything's going on around me and i'm just passing through it, almost painlessly, almost ignoring everything unconciously. I want to feel everything and express it, but when i do that, i feel as if i'm over-exagerating it, and then everything just feels fake. Maybe i really am fine. In the last month, i've been held by someone that i trusted, been told my parents were seperating, started failing school, visit family and heard stories i never knew, saw Clare and experienced things i'd never expect to feel, my mom moved out, found other family stuff out, and while i was flying home from getting support away from home, the boy i trusted was kissing another girl. It all just crashes down on me and to the point that i'm not even that upset.
Alden might be getting brain surgury, and so please pray for him. This family really doesn't deserve that.
Irene's getting better.
Molly's dad...i don't know how he's doing. But pray for him too.
"Since Mom comes over here all the time, are you going to start spending time at her apartment too?"
"Not for a while...i don't think."
"why not?"
"I think... it'd make me sad."
"why?"
"i don't want her to be living in an apartment."
lose it
lose it
i dont know what day. i don't know what to say. Little child playing in the dark with a flashlight. i'm too stressed to stay. i'm the only one without professional help and i'm doing just fine. i'm doing just fine.
Alden might be getting brain surgury, and so please pray for him. This family really doesn't deserve that.
Irene's getting better.
Molly's dad...i don't know how he's doing. But pray for him too.
"Since Mom comes over here all the time, are you going to start spending time at her apartment too?"
"Not for a while...i don't think."
"why not?"
"I think... it'd make me sad."
"why?"
"i don't want her to be living in an apartment."
lose it
lose it
i dont know what day. i don't know what to say. Little child playing in the dark with a flashlight. i'm too stressed to stay. i'm the only one without professional help and i'm doing just fine. i'm doing just fine.