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happiness should never depend on one person, or any amount of people.
She cried today. I don't think i'll ever be able to fill the place of the other people, i'm just not like that. I'm awkward, afraid of touching people, afraid of hugging. It's frustrating because i feel what she's going through so much and yet i'm not even trying to relate myself to her.
School today was a really long day, and i was late to Burl's class because i was SPRINTING to get my duffel and change for crew, and so i sat through math in spandex, not in good standing with Burl, and frustration at the end when he decided he could let us out late and biology has never seemed so long (it was a lab...). But the lunch BBQ was pretty fun, man our school is small, and i watched the guys play touch football with some other girls. French was hilarious...Tom, Ryan, Casey, Carson, Nick, Alex, Molly...woaaah good group. It was like the most extreme hyper happiness with something hidden...i don't know.
My phone rang twice during forum, it being a woman trying to reach a boy named "Sam" and obviously couldn't tell by my answering machine that it was in fact was NOT her college son or something...and then a young adult girl got on (sister or girlfriend?)...lots of I love you's...i sort of wish i could get the message to Sam.
Crew was aaaabsolutly great. I'm really sore now, and my room being on the 3rd floor (4th with basement), i've been having trouble going up and down. We ran around the lake and did dock rowing and those ab-circut things, and afterwards it just feels good. I'm slowly getting to know the girls on the team better, which is good. I'm excited for Tuesday when we actually get to go out on the water. AND carson and max were going to come watch us. Spandex!!!
I'm glad i'm home tonight, i guess, even though i'm in a really crazy mood. I was going to go to the Ave with Kate and Ilka, and then later maybe a movie with Alexander and other peoples, but nothing worked out for tonight. SSSSOOOO i'm in my pajamas and i think i'll rent a movie or something. I wrote a little bit but recently my writing's going nowhere and so i just stopped. I'll probably just rent a movie...
I wish max was here...he's the coolest guy to be around. Or Carson. Or Ilka. Or Roscoe. Or Alexander. boys are funny.
She cried today. I don't think i'll ever be able to fill the place of the other people, i'm just not like that. I'm awkward, afraid of touching people, afraid of hugging. It's frustrating because i feel what she's going through so much and yet i'm not even trying to relate myself to her.
School today was a really long day, and i was late to Burl's class because i was SPRINTING to get my duffel and change for crew, and so i sat through math in spandex, not in good standing with Burl, and frustration at the end when he decided he could let us out late and biology has never seemed so long (it was a lab...). But the lunch BBQ was pretty fun, man our school is small, and i watched the guys play touch football with some other girls. French was hilarious...Tom, Ryan, Casey, Carson, Nick, Alex, Molly...woaaah good group. It was like the most extreme hyper happiness with something hidden...i don't know.
My phone rang twice during forum, it being a woman trying to reach a boy named "Sam" and obviously couldn't tell by my answering machine that it was in fact was NOT her college son or something...and then a young adult girl got on (sister or girlfriend?)...lots of I love you's...i sort of wish i could get the message to Sam.
Crew was aaaabsolutly great. I'm really sore now, and my room being on the 3rd floor (4th with basement), i've been having trouble going up and down. We ran around the lake and did dock rowing and those ab-circut things, and afterwards it just feels good. I'm slowly getting to know the girls on the team better, which is good. I'm excited for Tuesday when we actually get to go out on the water. AND carson and max were going to come watch us. Spandex!!!
I'm glad i'm home tonight, i guess, even though i'm in a really crazy mood. I was going to go to the Ave with Kate and Ilka, and then later maybe a movie with Alexander and other peoples, but nothing worked out for tonight. SSSSOOOO i'm in my pajamas and i think i'll rent a movie or something. I wrote a little bit but recently my writing's going nowhere and so i just stopped. I'll probably just rent a movie...
I wish max was here...he's the coolest guy to be around. Or Carson. Or Ilka. Or Roscoe. Or Alexander. boys are funny.