Need Sleep !!!
God, today was the first day I tried to go to bed early to get some much needed sleep and I couldn't even fall a sleep. I have too much shit on my mind...Today at work I found out some shit about me that I didn't know was going around between my supervisor and another coworker of mine. I hate office talk...They fuckin talk behind each others backs...and act all friendly and shit when u around. Some shit that I found out really hurt...I'm trying not to let it get to me but I just can't help it.
My supervisor is a BITCH!
Now I’m fuckin glad her husband got laid off..Huh! Stupid Cunt! The good thing is that she can't fire me...she can only do that if she talks our boss into it and they love me...The owners of our firm love me...they are the sweetest couple from Charleston. So, she has to go through them first if she wants to succeed in firing me. God, she is so fuckin fake...she acts all cool and shit w/ me and than I find out all this shit she's saying and trying to do. FUCK! I just want to slap the acne off her fuckin face.
I need to get some sleep and now because of all this shit I can't. I'm so tired...I hate this feeling...my body is telling me to get rest cause I need it but my mind won't let. Somebody shoot me. I really wish I didn't see all the shit that I saw in her email, that way I would be sleeping right now. My hunny is sleeping right now, he's been working hard also, so he's getting his rest. I wish I could lay down w/ him. That way I know I would fall a sleep. I can always fall a sleep in his arms. But I’m glad at least one of us is getting some rest.
Now I’m looking more forward to this weekend...I definitely need a break from the family...just spend some one on one time w/ my hubby...I know I’ll feel better when I’m w/ him. God, this morning I was tired as shit but I was happy...I didn't even mind going to work...and now this shit...I feel so fuckin down I’m making myself sick...I hate when I get like this...Hopefully the Bon Jovi concert this Friday will help me forget about all my troubles. I emailed my cousin today and told her to get my parents out of here Friday night if she can...hopefully she will that gives my hubby and I one extra full night together. Hopefully I’ll hear back from her by tomorrow.
I'm turning 21 next Saturday. I dunno if I should be happy or depressed. Happy because I'm turning 21 and I have been waiting to turn 21 since I was 15 years old. Depressed because I’m just getting older and older which means more and more responsibility. I have enough right now and it'll just keep coming. Ahg! FUCK! This BITCH has even ruined my birthday...
Ok...So now I need advice on how to make her life a living HELL at our office. Just remember we are a very small firm so there is always someone around. I NEED SUGGESTIONS!!!!
Or should i just run her over w/ a CAR!?!