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well tonight was alright, till i came home. i went to the movies with lauren casey and jessica and we saw raising helen. it was a good movie but i wasnt really paying attention, i had other things on my mind. then when i came home me and my mom blew up into a big ass fight. oh what a surprise. i asked for a half an hour longer, and she flipped out. which was really weird, her saying how i never abide by the rules anymore? like 10:30 wouldve killed her. and now my fucking wonderful father trots his ass into the kitchen and tells me that im grounded. for bothering my mother. i told her im sorry in such a pain in the ass mother, sorry i am such a bother to you.. sorry for being sooo imperfect. but it doesnt matter. its all my fault im not perfect, all my fault that i am a teenager, and that i like to have a lil fun. allll my fucking fault. everything is about mom. if i irritate her, i get grounded. because her life is sooo "stressful" because she has to deal with me. well sorry mom, im sorry im not my little sister karen who is just so fucking perfect, i bet you wonder where you went wrong with me. im o so fucking sorry. maybe ill sleep and not wake up.. if im lucky. im sorry you have to read this. im really not always this bitchy or depressed. i just fucking quit. i did my part i tried to be nice. i quit.