to every girl.
i feel completely evil right now.
and i realized in the past little while that all girls[at least that i know] are completely evil in some way.
and i think about it...and i hate being evil...
and by evil i really mean that i feel like i have been a bad friend.
to basically all of my friends.
i want to tell some of my old friends how sorry i am for being a jerk.
this is something i think about a lot.
i want to be able to say it to their faces but i can't even get myself to talk to them.
i called some of these girls my best friends.
and now i don't even have the nerve to talk to them.
to apologize.
to do something.
its driving me craaaazy.
and i just thought that maybe typing it out might make me feel a little bit less crazy.
well its not really working.
the worst part is i still care about these girls.
i want them to know that but i don't know how to tell them.
yikes.
maybe i'm just tired.
i can't figure it out.
to me this isn't really the type of situation i can just make someone cookies and walk up and say i'm sorry.
garrr.
maybe somethings are just too far gone and not worth the effort of trying to fix.
i just want things to be okay.
even if things are just neutral.
its definitely better than being negative to me.
i can't graduate and have these people go away without doing something.
things have to be okay.
i'll settle for okay.
goodness. i'm tired.
and done venting to no one but myself.
and i realized in the past little while that all girls[at least that i know] are completely evil in some way.
and i think about it...and i hate being evil...
and by evil i really mean that i feel like i have been a bad friend.
to basically all of my friends.
i want to tell some of my old friends how sorry i am for being a jerk.
this is something i think about a lot.
i want to be able to say it to their faces but i can't even get myself to talk to them.
i called some of these girls my best friends.
and now i don't even have the nerve to talk to them.
to apologize.
to do something.
its driving me craaaazy.
and i just thought that maybe typing it out might make me feel a little bit less crazy.
well its not really working.
the worst part is i still care about these girls.
i want them to know that but i don't know how to tell them.
yikes.
maybe i'm just tired.
i can't figure it out.
to me this isn't really the type of situation i can just make someone cookies and walk up and say i'm sorry.
garrr.
maybe somethings are just too far gone and not worth the effort of trying to fix.
i just want things to be okay.
even if things are just neutral.
its definitely better than being negative to me.
i can't graduate and have these people go away without doing something.
things have to be okay.
i'll settle for okay.
goodness. i'm tired.
and done venting to no one but myself.