Sunday, early hours...reflections...
I need a job. Once again I feel a nagging bitterness towards the ex who swindled me out of such a large sum of money. I would be so much better off if I had that right now...as it is I'm having to really cut back with Christmas presents and things. My one hope is that I get it back by the time I graduate so I can put it towards my trip to Australia.
I have met someone. I needed someone to finally divert my attention away from the messiness of the guy I liked too much before. No-one in the last 6months has managed to grab my focus so much that I'm ready to finally forget how I felt about the other guy...but finally it's happened.
I was out with my friend Lee last Friday night, and I spotted this amazing looking guy just standing across the dancefloor from where we were...we made eye contact and then just carried on regardless. After a while I found I couldn't stop looking at him, and vice versa...but my usual insecurities told me that I hadn't a hope in hell of even talking to someone like him. Lee left to get a drink, and he came over (at the time, I thought he was gonna tell me off for looking at him...I was ready to start apologising!). He said something like "I know you have a boyfriend but I couldn't just keep looking at you and not come over to tell you how lovely you look". I was a little taken aback, thanked him and then explained that Lee is NOT my boyfriend (which opened up conversation a little!!). We got chatting, exchanged numbers (and he asked for my MSN!) and went our own way...he then called me later to see where I was and we met up in Oceana and chatted for the rest of the night while Lee attempted to pull some random girls haha). Didn't think I'd hear from him again to be honest, but he did eventually add me to his MSN and we've chatted so much since then. We arranged to meet up yesterday and I (in usual Sian style) ran around getting ready with the thought that he probably wouldn't show up - but he did, and I had the best day ever. We actually did relatively little but having chatted on MSN all week and having spoken on the phone a few times I think we'd got to know each other better than most would prior to a first date. We went to Lloyds and commandeered a sofa, and just talked and talked for hours. He had already kissed me on the night I first met him, but yesterday was like no other...lots of kisses and cuddles - I didn't want it to end. Met him at 2pm expecting to stay til maybe 6 and I actually got the 9:30 bus back home (last bus from Notts to where I live!). He's asked me to see him again so we've made plans for Wednesday and I'm really looking forward to it. I don't make a habit of meeting guys in bars and thinking anything of it...but this time feels different. There's a lot more to him than meets the eye (and what meets the eye is pretty damn good, I have to say!) and I really want to get to know everything I can. It takes a lot for me to want that...and right now I'm prepared to give up my single life for this guy. Few more dates, who knows!? I know what I want, but I'm taking it as it comes. No point in rushing anything in life eh?
I have met someone. I needed someone to finally divert my attention away from the messiness of the guy I liked too much before. No-one in the last 6months has managed to grab my focus so much that I'm ready to finally forget how I felt about the other guy...but finally it's happened.
I was out with my friend Lee last Friday night, and I spotted this amazing looking guy just standing across the dancefloor from where we were...we made eye contact and then just carried on regardless. After a while I found I couldn't stop looking at him, and vice versa...but my usual insecurities told me that I hadn't a hope in hell of even talking to someone like him. Lee left to get a drink, and he came over (at the time, I thought he was gonna tell me off for looking at him...I was ready to start apologising!). He said something like "I know you have a boyfriend but I couldn't just keep looking at you and not come over to tell you how lovely you look". I was a little taken aback, thanked him and then explained that Lee is NOT my boyfriend (which opened up conversation a little!!). We got chatting, exchanged numbers (and he asked for my MSN!) and went our own way...he then called me later to see where I was and we met up in Oceana and chatted for the rest of the night while Lee attempted to pull some random girls haha). Didn't think I'd hear from him again to be honest, but he did eventually add me to his MSN and we've chatted so much since then. We arranged to meet up yesterday and I (in usual Sian style) ran around getting ready with the thought that he probably wouldn't show up - but he did, and I had the best day ever. We actually did relatively little but having chatted on MSN all week and having spoken on the phone a few times I think we'd got to know each other better than most would prior to a first date. We went to Lloyds and commandeered a sofa, and just talked and talked for hours. He had already kissed me on the night I first met him, but yesterday was like no other...lots of kisses and cuddles - I didn't want it to end. Met him at 2pm expecting to stay til maybe 6 and I actually got the 9:30 bus back home (last bus from Notts to where I live!). He's asked me to see him again so we've made plans for Wednesday and I'm really looking forward to it. I don't make a habit of meeting guys in bars and thinking anything of it...but this time feels different. There's a lot more to him than meets the eye (and what meets the eye is pretty damn good, I have to say!) and I really want to get to know everything I can. It takes a lot for me to want that...and right now I'm prepared to give up my single life for this guy. Few more dates, who knows!? I know what I want, but I'm taking it as it comes. No point in rushing anything in life eh?