its my time to become a whore...
ok so heres what i was trying to write earlier but got interupted...
I do shut people out and thats one of my major faults. I cant help it and im sorry to those who i do it too but ive been through alot the past 3 1/2 years i have lived here. It hurt alot and i guess thats growing up and what not but i take things more personally than most people do. It hurts to think that right now i can only say i have one true friend. Now i think i am able to share stuff on LJ cause i dont care anymore. If it bothers someone, they can bite me. Im over it...
So today was my first day of work. I worked 7 hours and learned how to do everything in a snack bar. That was cool. I think working there will actually help me eat less in the long run, so that works for me. Alot of cool people work there so thats fun. This guy Justin(the J's lol) is cool. He was kinda hitting on me all day but not too bad. Sometimes its nice to know people like you. But yeah hes 22 and lives right around the corner from me so it could get interesting. He asked me if i had a bf and when i said no he said well thats surprising. I asked why and he said cause your really cute... That threw me off for a second. I was like uh me... your blind but it was funny. So i work tomorrow and it should be fun. I work till 8 so people should come visit me :)
So i talked to Jarratt tonight which was cool. I havent talked to him in a while. Im glad hes growing up and getting the friends he needs, instead of stupid highschoolers with all of the highschool drama. Im happy for him but as you all could guess a lil sad cause i dont want to lose him. I know we have a bond that can survive anything and talking to him tonight helped reassure me of that. He thinks i will grow up now that im working and not want to hang out with him. I think hes stupid for even thinking that. Well he told me i will grow up and go through my "whore" phase that every girl goes through. Ha. I liked that hence my subject. but come on its me. Im not a very good sexual person and ive very uncomfortable with people and my body so i doubt my whore phase will kick in anytime soon. But i thought i would share that cause i at least found it entertaining.
Well im going to try and get some sleep. Im glad i dont have zero hour on fridays cause i get to sleep in! yay! leave me love
I do shut people out and thats one of my major faults. I cant help it and im sorry to those who i do it too but ive been through alot the past 3 1/2 years i have lived here. It hurt alot and i guess thats growing up and what not but i take things more personally than most people do. It hurts to think that right now i can only say i have one true friend. Now i think i am able to share stuff on LJ cause i dont care anymore. If it bothers someone, they can bite me. Im over it...
So today was my first day of work. I worked 7 hours and learned how to do everything in a snack bar. That was cool. I think working there will actually help me eat less in the long run, so that works for me. Alot of cool people work there so thats fun. This guy Justin(the J's lol) is cool. He was kinda hitting on me all day but not too bad. Sometimes its nice to know people like you. But yeah hes 22 and lives right around the corner from me so it could get interesting. He asked me if i had a bf and when i said no he said well thats surprising. I asked why and he said cause your really cute... That threw me off for a second. I was like uh me... your blind but it was funny. So i work tomorrow and it should be fun. I work till 8 so people should come visit me :)
So i talked to Jarratt tonight which was cool. I havent talked to him in a while. Im glad hes growing up and getting the friends he needs, instead of stupid highschoolers with all of the highschool drama. Im happy for him but as you all could guess a lil sad cause i dont want to lose him. I know we have a bond that can survive anything and talking to him tonight helped reassure me of that. He thinks i will grow up now that im working and not want to hang out with him. I think hes stupid for even thinking that. Well he told me i will grow up and go through my "whore" phase that every girl goes through. Ha. I liked that hence my subject. but come on its me. Im not a very good sexual person and ive very uncomfortable with people and my body so i doubt my whore phase will kick in anytime soon. But i thought i would share that cause i at least found it entertaining.
Well im going to try and get some sleep. Im glad i dont have zero hour on fridays cause i get to sleep in! yay! leave me love