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O.k I'm updating this only because Ifind that there are some things that I just can't speak out loud and cuz Vetta is the only one that actually reads this(*wink Hi V). Well my lfe is same old same old. I am still utterly fascinated by male beavior here at Ferris. I find it odd that The second that I make up my mind that I was going to ignore D like I feel like he ignores me then he does stuff to go out his way to speak to me and get my attetion. What is that about. I don't feel the need to go into detail since you were there and I blame it on you cuz I swear that you saw him coming and I was tryinh to go throuh the Merrill doors like we always do but I guess you got a sudden burst of energy and wanted to go the extra mile lol. Let's all be honest This is a messed up situation that WE all are in the difference between myself and you gals (Trinna, Jessica, You)is that the guy I ave a problem has never talked to me in that way and probably never will so I will live and no longer feel the need to complain about him to any of you because our problems are not even in the same category of each other. I think mine is just more elaborated because of my overactive imagination and yours and your situation or what was you gals situation is serious that deals with or dealt with real relationships. As much as I don't want to admit to myself that I did or do like the attention from D I can't make it seem that it's only because of him because I am a needy person and almost all attention is good to me so to narrow that down to one person isn't fair to me. Do I still have feeling for him? Of course but then again I still have feeling for Jonathan so what does that really say about me. It says that I have a hard time letting go especially when the feelings are one sided and I'm left wondering what if I had told them or What if they do like me? But like always I know that the Lord will see me through all my trials and tribulations Hopefully he will put the right man in my life with as little stress as possible and I pray that that will be real soon.But for now I guess that I 'll just Getter Done!!(blue collar tour)