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Got a call yesterday and I am not working on Monday. There aren't enough patients to fill the schedule. *SIGH*
Gonna talk to my daughter's classmates on Monday about Children's Dental Health Month.
My daugher's teacher also got me involved in Career Day coming up in a few weeks. Now I have to think of stuff to say to a bunch of kids about what I do. :)
My son got sick again yesterday morning. He woke up, was going down stairs and puked on the steps. He stayed home from school and slept a lot. I started to feel like crap yesterday afternoon, so after my kids laid down for a nap at 5:30 (they did this on their own) I went to my bed and laid down. I slept for 12 hours. My son and daughter climbed into my bed last night but they kept me warm, so I dealt with the snoring in my ears! LOL
I am glad I did my grocery shopping yesterday because I feel like crap, again, today. My head is pounding and my tummy is turning a little. Even Coffee seems icky to me, which is very odd. I probably have what the kids had this past two weeks. I hate being sick.
Thursday is my birthday and I will be 32. I hope this year will be much better for me than the last few years have been. The past ten years have been a blur, but I have been sooo busy working overtime, having babies, going to school, babysitting 40+ hours a week that I haven't had much time to enjoy myself, to live life, to relax a little. I need to make that a priority but right now, for life is going by me too quickly. I would like to but since I am the only one working, Survival is #1 on my list at the moment. I don't have a steady job, BUT I do get called to fill in here and there, and it's just enough to pay my bills.
I think what I need to do from now on is to think of myself a little more. I have always put myself on the back burner for others. That's good, to a point. My kids are always going to be important to me, and I will do what I have to do to make sure they are safe, healthy, fed, clean, etc. I want to be able to relax, laugh more, enjoy life more. Trying to relax is hard for me to do because I am a born worry wart. My mind goes in a hundred directions all at once. I can think about the checkbook, what sales are going on at what grocery store, what the kids need done this week, what loads of laundry I need to get done ASAP, figure out what chores need to be done, etc all at the same time. Even while in the shower, I am still thinking about what I need to do that day or week. Why can't I just sit and enjoy the moment? I'm getting better about not dwelling inthe past as much.... but I still worry too much about the future that I don't enjoy NOW. (Does that make sense?)