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[babygurl699]

alot of people can hide heart breaks and being upset by just laughing it off but thats soemthing i can't do i can just sit at my computer and complain like i've been doing lately, istill feel pretty shitty,...i feel shitty that im no longer the only one he likes i feel shitty because im being so selfish and i don't even like him as much as i thought im pissed off because tomorrow is the last day and im not ready for it to be over im pissed off because i blew off my friends for some guy and i know once i get to ryans i might regret going over there im going to miss my friends and wonder what they're all doing at the beach but oh well it was my decission and everything happens for a reason thats one statement i always think of and it usually makes me feel better becaues things happen for the best ya know. i feel like a little pussy sitting here complaining but oh well you're the one that's reading it, josh and andrew hav been jerks lately, tho im sure they haven;t i just intrepet what they're saying into something bad i don't feel as close to them as i did no more i love you's from andrew and no more what's up gorgeous's from my bestestestest friend i miss u man. i think right now is a time when some friendships are going to get alot stronger which i have already noticed and also some are going to become weaker which i have also noticed, im scared for high school, yeah i am...but then again i can't fucking wait. i want to meet new people i want to be introduced to my future best friend and boyfriend and teachers and life. i may not be ready but no matter what, it's coming.

natalie baby im going to miss you, we might not be that close but i can say that we;ve never even talked before this year and i love you and i love listening to all you're little stories you always have for me and helpin me out imma miss you baby.

fucking fuckidfkshjdf dsfkdf my plans are all screwed up for tomorrow damnit.