Trying to be a better christain and look at things in a better light...
Im trying to be more optamistic than pestamistic. Today was a horrible day. I'd have to say myself. Im trying to just get my feelings out all to myself and just not let my life affect other peole or make other people mad. After looking on the " up-side" of things, I kind of like it. It feels a lot better. It takes a tole on you to always be hurting. I know people will think im crazy and dumb for taking him back but, I love him. Yea he did somethin wrong, but think about if it were u and if u'd believe a girl that wants your boy or if you'd believe him. He has admitted to everything that I have asked him and hasnt lied to my knowledge so far. If I want to make my relationship work, I gotta live it for me, not for what I think other people will say. I know he was hurt just as much as I was. So instead of just blowing it off, Im gonna say thats strike one. And just as much as he makes me sad, or cry, or dissapointed. He more makes me smile. We have been through a lot, and I know he is not perfect. Our relationship has been on edge for the last past 3 days, and we were soo happy today and last night. Then after school it all went downhill. Before you judge me or judge him, try to understand. Someone said somethin to me that I thought was just amazing and I think its a really good thing...no i have not been in love but when ever i am in love im going to charish it and know that this person means everything to me and i would do anything to stay with them and keep them in my arms and never let them go.... I think that is awesome of you to realize that ryan Its amazing to see that you know that love is to be charished as only a freshman! Good luck with whatever you do! Today was not the best day of the week, but I know that I will live on and there will be better ahead because god will bless me no matter what other people say or do to me. Im just gonna pray that he has mercy on "them" because I believe that people are good at heart!