no one really knoes...
ive just met sum new people tha past 3yrs..but none of them kno wat I truly feel...no one knos that for tha past 3 yrs ive hated my life..i hate everything..i mite laugh at jokes...i might smile i might do so much..and i look n act happy but truly im not..in my heart i dun even wanna b here.. its like i hav no point ne more... i used to think i was here cuz i was there to b there for my brother and i was there to help him n play with him n wen my dad wudnt wake up n hear him calling him i wud go down n turn him onto his other side and i used to love just having a big brother to come home n come down into tha basement to c... but he isnt here n more for me to come down n give a hug n ask if he wants to play PS2 or sumthin after dinner....i dun hav a big brother who plays wit me wen im down..or who wud b there to talk to wen my mom n i get in fights..i used to hav that n i miss it soo much now..but ppl just dont get it..ok so i was only 10 i didnt really kno him that much..but wen i was little EVERYDAY wen i got home i wud come down n he wud b there n i wud always play with him...and ppls say well its been 3 yrs n b lost her dad u dun c her crying...well yeah b lost her dad n i kno that is hard....but she didnt lose 4otha ppls afta that n she had time to mourn ova her dad..i didnt get tha time..n afta a person dies i get a small chance..but then another person dies...and it just seems to b a chain...