I don't understand.
I don't know how to control my emotions anymore. I feel like all I ever am is ANGRY or depressed lately. I just want to cry all the time, and scream as well. I feel like nothing really makes me happy anymore. I love summer and I love this weather, but I just can't bring myself to be happy. But I know that I'd be just as upset if I were in Rutland. I was talking to Pat Shortle last night, who I haven't talked to in FOREVER, and he just reminded me how much I hate Rutland, and reminded me of why I'm so happy not to be there. Not because of him, but just because of the majority of the shitty people who live there, and the fact that there really is nothing to do there. I hate it.
I miss Vermont though, I do want to go back to UVM. I don't think I would be happy enough down here. I love it here, it's great to come back to, but I think the place to further my education is UVM. I love the campus, I love the people and I love the professors. It's just such an amazing atmosphere and a great place to learn. You have to love where you're going to school. I mean I don't want to transfer to somewhere else when I know that I'm happy where I am. Don't most people transfer because they are unhappy with the school that their going to?? Yea, plus transferring is SUCH a bitch. I don't want to have bills coming to me from multiple schools. So what if it's cold, so what if it's not as happenin' as NC. It's beautiful, the people speak fucking ENGLISH without a damn accent, and I know it because it's home.
AH FUCK! Why can't I be happy!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
p.s. work tonight = shoot me in the face. :)
I miss Vermont though, I do want to go back to UVM. I don't think I would be happy enough down here. I love it here, it's great to come back to, but I think the place to further my education is UVM. I love the campus, I love the people and I love the professors. It's just such an amazing atmosphere and a great place to learn. You have to love where you're going to school. I mean I don't want to transfer to somewhere else when I know that I'm happy where I am. Don't most people transfer because they are unhappy with the school that their going to?? Yea, plus transferring is SUCH a bitch. I don't want to have bills coming to me from multiple schools. So what if it's cold, so what if it's not as happenin' as NC. It's beautiful, the people speak fucking ENGLISH without a damn accent, and I know it because it's home.
AH FUCK! Why can't I be happy!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
p.s. work tonight = shoot me in the face. :)