Alrighty
Well I just got back from spending the last two days at the beach with Lars :) Despite the fact that it rained pretty much the whole time (with the exception of the drive there and the hour or two that we got to play in the ocean) we still had a great time. We got what we wanted and needed, some rest and relaxation, and of course, some alone time. The first night we played around on the beach, went out to dinner, and had his friend Andrew who lives in Wilmington come over and we played some drinking games. We watched the hockey game and just hung around. The next day we didn't do a whole lot, we got up, had breakfast, went back to the hotel, took naps, went out to dinner and came back to the hotel and talked. It was so nice, we just sat on the balcony drinkin some beers and talked.
It was really intense though. We talked about how much we care for one another and how he can't bare to love me so much when he knows I'm leaving in the fall. I don't know what to do. I want to go back to UVM because I absolutely love it, but it'd be cheaper, and closer if I went to NC State University. And I would get that opportunity to be with Lars. But I just don't know. He's telling me that he's not ready to "settle down" but he is ready for something serious. I had NO idea I was going to be in any kind of relationship when I got here, let alone a serious one. I care about him a lot, but we've only been dating a couple of weeks and that's just too soon for me to decide whether or not I want to stay in a state because of him.
My mom is telling me that it's only $8,500 a semester to go to NC state (as an out of state res. because I wouldn't be considered instate for atleast 12 months of living here) and it's $23,000 as an in-state res. at UVM. Out of state is $35,000 or something like that. Soooo umm...the cheaper option would def. be going to school down here. But transferring is such a bitch.
I can never collect my thoughts anymore. There's so much random shit going on down here that I just don't know about anything anymore, plus I'm pretty sure I have anxiety. FUN!
It was really intense though. We talked about how much we care for one another and how he can't bare to love me so much when he knows I'm leaving in the fall. I don't know what to do. I want to go back to UVM because I absolutely love it, but it'd be cheaper, and closer if I went to NC State University. And I would get that opportunity to be with Lars. But I just don't know. He's telling me that he's not ready to "settle down" but he is ready for something serious. I had NO idea I was going to be in any kind of relationship when I got here, let alone a serious one. I care about him a lot, but we've only been dating a couple of weeks and that's just too soon for me to decide whether or not I want to stay in a state because of him.
My mom is telling me that it's only $8,500 a semester to go to NC state (as an out of state res. because I wouldn't be considered instate for atleast 12 months of living here) and it's $23,000 as an in-state res. at UVM. Out of state is $35,000 or something like that. Soooo umm...the cheaper option would def. be going to school down here. But transferring is such a bitch.
I can never collect my thoughts anymore. There's so much random shit going on down here that I just don't know about anything anymore, plus I'm pretty sure I have anxiety. FUN!