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im in such a fuckign shitty ass mood.
why the fuck do i try anymore. im fuckign crying so fuckign hard right now. i swear im such a fucking loser. i dont know why i let myself get worked up abotu stupid shit im a fucking douchebag. i hate myself right now. im a bad person. im a fucking shitty ass girlfriend. i make him feel like shit about himself i bet. im surprised he hasnt cheated on me with someone better whos a better person.
what the fuck ever. im fucking in the worst mood because i dont know why but me and him have been having so many fights and shit lately its fucking gay. he asks if i cheat.. uhh duhh if i get so worked up about shit so easily then no. yeah so i havent seen him since monday. and he asked to hang out. i suggested him coming over here cause i didnt go to school today. he says sure. i ask my dad it takes a while for him to answer cause hes busy. in the meantime me and mike fight about stupid shit. then i get an answer and before i said it mike was like "ill just talk to you later" and i mean what am i supposed to say..? i was like uhhhh sure.. whatever bye. so 10 mins later after i cooled down i called him back and was like yeah u can come over and hes like oh im going to kerrys with dave i cant.
that pissed me the fuck off like you have no fucking clue. especially because kerry made it so that mikes mom thinks/called me a whore. YEAH that makes me feel fucking great. I love how people make shit their business and shit like that. fuckin pisses me off. yeah so he was like "im gonna confront kerry about that thing" and it pissed me off so i was like "i dont fucking care!" and he hung up. i cried more and then called him back apologizing and what do i get..."dont apologize if you dont mean it"
pissed me off more.
yeah so he was like "im gonna call you around 6 i might go over then" and i was like oh well idno cuz my mom will be home soon and then he got all pissed cause i was pissed that he was chillin w/ dave and kerry even though he knew i fucking wanted him to come over here. but yeah thats alright.. im supposed to be okay with that i guess? newsflash. im not.
but yeah so now he might not come at all. even though i pointed out how i think its RETARDED how he just told me last night how he wants to see ME more and how he ALWAYS gets to see them and NEVER gets to see me. And he got pissed when i pointed out the fact that i really wanted to see him today because i havent since monday and i thought it would be good for our relationship or whatever if he came over cause of all the fights weve been having since.. well.. monday actually. but yeah im just a girl, not like i know anything.
whatever. im out. if you wanna hang out let me know before i fucking kill myself.
why the fuck do i try anymore. im fuckign crying so fuckign hard right now. i swear im such a fucking loser. i dont know why i let myself get worked up abotu stupid shit im a fucking douchebag. i hate myself right now. im a bad person. im a fucking shitty ass girlfriend. i make him feel like shit about himself i bet. im surprised he hasnt cheated on me with someone better whos a better person.
what the fuck ever. im fucking in the worst mood because i dont know why but me and him have been having so many fights and shit lately its fucking gay. he asks if i cheat.. uhh duhh if i get so worked up about shit so easily then no. yeah so i havent seen him since monday. and he asked to hang out. i suggested him coming over here cause i didnt go to school today. he says sure. i ask my dad it takes a while for him to answer cause hes busy. in the meantime me and mike fight about stupid shit. then i get an answer and before i said it mike was like "ill just talk to you later" and i mean what am i supposed to say..? i was like uhhhh sure.. whatever bye. so 10 mins later after i cooled down i called him back and was like yeah u can come over and hes like oh im going to kerrys with dave i cant.
that pissed me the fuck off like you have no fucking clue. especially because kerry made it so that mikes mom thinks/called me a whore. YEAH that makes me feel fucking great. I love how people make shit their business and shit like that. fuckin pisses me off. yeah so he was like "im gonna confront kerry about that thing" and it pissed me off so i was like "i dont fucking care!" and he hung up. i cried more and then called him back apologizing and what do i get..."dont apologize if you dont mean it"
pissed me off more.
yeah so he was like "im gonna call you around 6 i might go over then" and i was like oh well idno cuz my mom will be home soon and then he got all pissed cause i was pissed that he was chillin w/ dave and kerry even though he knew i fucking wanted him to come over here. but yeah thats alright.. im supposed to be okay with that i guess? newsflash. im not.
but yeah so now he might not come at all. even though i pointed out how i think its RETARDED how he just told me last night how he wants to see ME more and how he ALWAYS gets to see them and NEVER gets to see me. And he got pissed when i pointed out the fact that i really wanted to see him today because i havent since monday and i thought it would be good for our relationship or whatever if he came over cause of all the fights weve been having since.. well.. monday actually. but yeah im just a girl, not like i know anything.
whatever. im out. if you wanna hang out let me know before i fucking kill myself.