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today only semi-sucked. i got to work out today and the anti-laziness made me feel pretty good. but that didnt stop me from bingeing whatsoever, sadly. i'm 94 lbs almost. theres no way ill be 89 by friday. unless i simply stop bingeing....but its so much harder than i thought. its my way of procrastinating so that i dont have to...live, pursue life, be challenged, i dont know what. i didnt have to work today, but i do tomorrow, 5-7:15. kind of nervous of fucking it up and looking stupid...
i feel sooo gross lately, but today not as much after i exercised. i think ill make this a priority from now on, like it used to be.
i was doing well today, had a big apple sliced throughout the school day, i am trying to start eating more often so i get my metabolism back. but then when i got home., my mom went to shower and i was alone for a good 45 mins maybe...i didnt even WANT to binge but i did anyways. and then i had dinner. and then i left to go binge some more at the grocery store. what a day. how freaking sad. its like..every day.
i feel sooo gross lately, but today not as much after i exercised. i think ill make this a priority from now on, like it used to be.
i was doing well today, had a big apple sliced throughout the school day, i am trying to start eating more often so i get my metabolism back. but then when i got home., my mom went to shower and i was alone for a good 45 mins maybe...i didnt even WANT to binge but i did anyways. and then i had dinner. and then i left to go binge some more at the grocery store. what a day. how freaking sad. its like..every day.