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Its amazing how much a person can think about doin so many bad things to themself in a matter of a few hours...funny how that relates to me today. i cant explain it but things got bad and people say things have to get worst before they get better in my case its not ture, things have gotten so bad and then to okay and now back to bad. "Why did god put me here if i have to go through so many things" i bet 1000's of people ask themslefs that everyday but they all have a good point..nothing should be bad like it is today, people should just be normal but no..somehow things get fucked up....i dont even care, in the time it took to get me on earth i can get me off just as quick, i never thought i would think about it, (never have in that case) but today i did and it scares me becasue so many people have told me i'm strong but all those people dont know what goes on with me. According to my mother (who i dont consider to be a good hearted person AT ALL) says that i'm a witch and that i'm not thankful for what i have...HUMMM makes u think WHAT did she give me lets see. she gave me life which isnt all that great, she gave me a house and a few clothes, NO love NO respect and everything a mom should give, I as in ME pay for it..if no one has noticed im a very indepened person i dont need HER i gave her to many chances her times up..so i act like she isnt here and i barly have a father (but remember. hes to busy for me) yes i do have a sister but i'm not well liked by her and yeah so i'm all alone with no one to talk to sitting by the computer waiting for my mom to creep up behide me a read everything that i just wrote and then die in her evil hands.....yeah
JUST to let u all know i'm not goin crazy these are just simple thoughts that i think out from day to day...and i'm not goin to ((((kill))))myself so yeah...why would i do that i have to many other good things to live for...lol
*gracie*