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Wow. The last time I updated was Nov 26? I suck! Sorry!
Well 2006 is officially over and I think it would be physically impossible for me to be any more excited about that. Unfortunately it ended just as it had begun: with the loss of a wee person too small to be able to fight for herself.
Friday the 15th was to be our first dr. appointment for our second pregnancy. Unfortunately, I went to the doctor on Tuesday instead because I noticed some spotting and I didnt need to be told what was happening.
Instead of putting a crib in the nursery and surprising the hell out of our parents and the few friends that hadnt noticed yet, at our 3rd annual Christmas party on the 16th I got totally smashed! Despite that character flaw, I have been dealing with this one in ways I never dealt with the other one. Instead of telling Sean to tell everyone so I didn't have to see *that look* on their faces, I told everyone myself and I am stronger because of it.
Anyway, Sean and I are working on being "us" and becoming healthier happier people. We got into the hugest fight of our marriage on Christmas night and patched things up a few days later. I had surgery on the 29th because it seemed my body was unwilling to let things go. We brought in 2007 at our friend Caryn's house with a bang and we havent looked back since. We were ready to kick 2006 in the ass and it has been done with fervor.
We have been nicer people to each other and have been enjoying every moment of this "20-something-have-no-clue-what-I'm-doing-with-my-life" stage that we're going through right now. And I can say with only a small twinge of guilt, that I'm glad it's just us. I don't know that we ever would have gotten these candid conversations and these romantic moments if the path we were on had continued.
In our public lives things are going great. Sean started a new job at the first of the year and seems to be enjoying it (even if he has to dress in a shirt and tie every day!) and I am still loving the animal hospital. I got a long break with Christmas then the flu then new years and it surprised me how excited I was to be back there this week. I truly like being around people! And puppies!
Financially we are in complete ruin and normally this would have me depressed out of my skull and stressing to the max but, thanks to the new year and the ability to be able to start over, I am not letting it get me down. Its definately nagging in the back of my brain and we are definately going to have to start making some serious changes around here, but I refuse to let it wreck me.
Congratulations to my lj friends who have had children, retained their pregnancies, gotten new jobs, gotten engaged and just continued living your lives.
Relax! Enjoy what you're going through right now! Life truly is a beautiful thing!
Well 2006 is officially over and I think it would be physically impossible for me to be any more excited about that. Unfortunately it ended just as it had begun: with the loss of a wee person too small to be able to fight for herself.
Friday the 15th was to be our first dr. appointment for our second pregnancy. Unfortunately, I went to the doctor on Tuesday instead because I noticed some spotting and I didnt need to be told what was happening.
Instead of putting a crib in the nursery and surprising the hell out of our parents and the few friends that hadnt noticed yet, at our 3rd annual Christmas party on the 16th I got totally smashed! Despite that character flaw, I have been dealing with this one in ways I never dealt with the other one. Instead of telling Sean to tell everyone so I didn't have to see *that look* on their faces, I told everyone myself and I am stronger because of it.
Anyway, Sean and I are working on being "us" and becoming healthier happier people. We got into the hugest fight of our marriage on Christmas night and patched things up a few days later. I had surgery on the 29th because it seemed my body was unwilling to let things go. We brought in 2007 at our friend Caryn's house with a bang and we havent looked back since. We were ready to kick 2006 in the ass and it has been done with fervor.
We have been nicer people to each other and have been enjoying every moment of this "20-something-have-no-clue-what-I'm-doing-with-my-life" stage that we're going through right now. And I can say with only a small twinge of guilt, that I'm glad it's just us. I don't know that we ever would have gotten these candid conversations and these romantic moments if the path we were on had continued.
In our public lives things are going great. Sean started a new job at the first of the year and seems to be enjoying it (even if he has to dress in a shirt and tie every day!) and I am still loving the animal hospital. I got a long break with Christmas then the flu then new years and it surprised me how excited I was to be back there this week. I truly like being around people! And puppies!
Financially we are in complete ruin and normally this would have me depressed out of my skull and stressing to the max but, thanks to the new year and the ability to be able to start over, I am not letting it get me down. Its definately nagging in the back of my brain and we are definately going to have to start making some serious changes around here, but I refuse to let it wreck me.
Congratulations to my lj friends who have had children, retained their pregnancies, gotten new jobs, gotten engaged and just continued living your lives.
Relax! Enjoy what you're going through right now! Life truly is a beautiful thing!