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I was thinking the other day about all the different possibilities that I have in my life. There have been many times I knew without a doubt what my life was going to end up like, but now I am not sure what tomorrow holds for me. I was on the phone last night with my older brother and I was telling him about something that someone told me over the weekend. He asked me to repeat it, and when I did he said and I quotte, "Sis it sounds to me like you are not going to go to graduate school before you get married." I have not spoken to him in such a long time, it was so nice to talk to him again. He was calling to get our address so he can send us an invintation to his wedding. I cannot believe my brother is getting married. The one I fought with growing up and the one I that I have told everything to since I was little. When I am having trouble in school it is him who I talk to . He also told me that I need to hang in there and God is going to send me someone when I least expect it. He told me if I have trouble just think about the situation he was in before him and Britanny started dating and God will reward me in his own way.
This is the first year I have actually been happy being single. I do not want a boyfriend because I know that God will send me someone when the time is right. There are many reasons I have always been lonely and today I made the decision that I will not be lonely, and I will live each day for him. Even though this is the first year I am happy I know that there will be a reason when God sends me someone and it will be the best person ever, because God promised me that. The last time I was at peace this much was before Josh died which was a long time ago. There have always been reasons why I am the way I am, but even though I do not care what happens I have a feeling that the person I am supposed to marry is just around the corner. I could evn be talking to him, and not even be aware of it. I am not going to elaborate on that because right now I don't feel it is the time or the place.
So school is going good and it is keeping me busy. I have had three presentations already and they went well. I really enjoyed the one I did yesterday the most, because I got to stand up in front of the class and teach an Emily Dickenson poem. ~smuggles~I love her! I had a student in the class read it and then we picked out the personification in it, and talked about how it plays a role in making the poem the way it is. I could have talked more, but I was limited to ten mintues and there was still one more person to go after me.
Everything in my life is going great. I made teh decision that I do not want a boyfriend and everything seems to be falling in place for me. Why is it that when we look at ourselves and we are happy with ourselves our lives seem to go better? I wake up everyday and thank God for another day because without him I know that it is not worth waking up. I asked a question to an elder this weekend I didn't really get an answer but he told me that the answer lies within my heart. Well People I have to go because I have to take my mom to get her car from the dealership and I am going to stay on that side of town because I am going out tonight.
This is the first year I have actually been happy being single. I do not want a boyfriend because I know that God will send me someone when the time is right. There are many reasons I have always been lonely and today I made the decision that I will not be lonely, and I will live each day for him. Even though this is the first year I am happy I know that there will be a reason when God sends me someone and it will be the best person ever, because God promised me that. The last time I was at peace this much was before Josh died which was a long time ago. There have always been reasons why I am the way I am, but even though I do not care what happens I have a feeling that the person I am supposed to marry is just around the corner. I could evn be talking to him, and not even be aware of it. I am not going to elaborate on that because right now I don't feel it is the time or the place.
So school is going good and it is keeping me busy. I have had three presentations already and they went well. I really enjoyed the one I did yesterday the most, because I got to stand up in front of the class and teach an Emily Dickenson poem. ~smuggles~I love her! I had a student in the class read it and then we picked out the personification in it, and talked about how it plays a role in making the poem the way it is. I could have talked more, but I was limited to ten mintues and there was still one more person to go after me.
Everything in my life is going great. I made teh decision that I do not want a boyfriend and everything seems to be falling in place for me. Why is it that when we look at ourselves and we are happy with ourselves our lives seem to go better? I wake up everyday and thank God for another day because without him I know that it is not worth waking up. I asked a question to an elder this weekend I didn't really get an answer but he told me that the answer lies within my heart. Well People I have to go because I have to take my mom to get her car from the dealership and I am going to stay on that side of town because I am going out tonight.