i have the o.c. theme song stuck in my head
today was one of my bad days...god i have felt sooooo horrible all day! i'm weak and its like i can bearly lift my head up, but when i lay down i can't sleep. doctors said i would feel worse then i ever have before i started to feel better, i think i'm getting that feeling, maybe it's almost over maybe i'm getting better. i realized today i'm really lonely. i miss when me and ashley were always together, i miss amanda, i don't really miss kelly that much i'm actually kind of glad i got away from her...but i miss having a best friend, i miss knowing i have that one person i can go to about anything. i love jarred i really do, but i mean i need a friend too, not just a boyfriend...and he is my best friend, he's the best friend i could have but i need a girl friend too...and i mean ashley is still there, and amanda is too sometimes, but we use to be so close...things are just changing. people are changing. and it still upsets me things have to be the way they are...but i guess that's life! saying all that makes me sound kind of pathetic lol. but don't get me wrong i do have great friends, i just guess i kind of feel like i'm missing something! well i'm going to go lay down maybe i'll feel better. bye!