Job sucks.
So i hate my job. It sucks @$$. I want to quit. Me and nick need the money though so i dont know what im going to do. One of the main reasons why i hate it is because i've been panicing really bad when im checking people out and that causes me to screw up and i can tell it pisses barbara off. I feel bad for her because i really suck at my job. Its depressing me too. Making me just want to pull all of my hair out. Which isnt good. So i think im going to quit tomorrow and find me another job. I would love it if we were doing good on money where i wouldnt have to work and i could pioneer but i dont think thats gonna happen for a long time. I guess i shouldn't get my hopes up.
Maybe, I should write up a budget type thing to see how much money we'll be needing a week and when nick gets home talk to him about it and see if hes gonna be making enough to where i dont have to work. If i have to work though i want to do janitorial. Cuz im really good at that. Maybe work for Merry maids or a hotel cleaning or something. I dunno. I wish life was simpler. I keep crying about all this because i know we need the money but i also cant stand it and its making me sick.
Last night i was really sick so i called in today. I woke up at like 1 Am throwing up. I'm not exactly sure why. Claudia says im prolly pregnant. I hope to god that im not. That would really suck. I know im not pregnant, what am i talking about? I guess she just has me all worried now. She has a tendency to do that to me.
I love nick. He is the best husband i could have ever asked for. He makes me talk to him when things are bothering me and he just takes care of me mostly. Thats one thing i really do love about him. He really shows that he cares about me. Earlier he was trying to get me to tell him what was wrong and when i told him it was the job he just said "if its bugging you that bad then you can quit". I love him. So much.
Anyways, im bored and i dont feel too good so im going to go lay down and maybe wake up in a couple hours and clean house or something.