good long journal entry!! :)
Last night after nick got out of class we went down to Mt.Ida. On the way down there we talked about friday, getting a job, and where we're gonna live. He said he wanted me to come friday because im as good as family. That made me feel good.
It turns out that im more then likely going to be the one supporting us because he doesnt seem to be getting his butt in gear like he said he would. He's a boy though so hes not too worried about it. Me on the other hand, im freaking scared to death that we're not gonna have anywhere to live. MEN! On top of all that, nick said something to me last night about wanting to drink because brian was leaving. It scared me really bad. I almost burst into tears. What is best for him is to not drink. But it doesnt matter what i think. It never has to anyone else so why should i think it matters to nick?
Anyhoo, When we got to stacys last night it was freaking cold so they turned the fire on on the burners and i accidently burned the hair off my arms. It was freaking halarious. I know, i know.. I'm dumb!
After being there awhile though i got pretty warm because nick made a fire. We hung around for awhile and i watched nick play some games on the xbox. Every once in awhile he would turn around and give me kisses and hugs and tell me he loved me. So it made me feel good. Then brian showed up and he was like "im not going to hot springs by myself" so me and nick ended up having to go with him. We were just gonna stay there and davy was gonna go. Well they couldnt get ahold of him and he never called so me and nick ended up going.
Anyways, on the whole way up there he drove like 80 miles an hour. Needless to say i was freaking scared to death that we were gonna have a wreck. I guess i've just watched too many movies and tv programs with wrecks in them. I held onto the shit bar most of the time. He was driving that way because we were SUPPOSED to leave the house at like 10 to get there at 10:30.. well we left at 10:25. Then we had to stop like 5,000 times. We stopped at the hospital, we stopped at the atm, we stopped at Mcdonalds which happened to be closed And brian said "they done pissed a white person off". It was hallarious. Then we stopped at taco bell. I was freaking hungry but i didnt say anything cuz i didnt have any money and i didnt wanna spend brians. Then we went to the hospital again, then we FINALLy got to the mall where they were selling the game.. by this time its already 12:30 AM. So we stand in line for about 30 minutes or so and then i got a head start out to the truck because i knew they'd be walking fast and i wouldnt be able to catch up with them. After that we drove home. FAST. He was driving 90 the whole way home. It didnt seem as bad as before though. I think i got used to his driving after awhile.
We get home and i lay there for about 30 minutes watching them play Halo 2.. and then i fell asleep about 2. Thats the last time i looked at the clock. Well nick woke me up at like 7 AM telling me to go downstairs to bed. I dont remember much after that except nick waking me up at like 11:15 cuz i had to go to waldron to get kristen to take her to ft.smith to her appointment. I got to go home and see my momma though. The appointment was short though. So i didnt get much time to do anything.
I went to this agri thing at kristens school with her today and we had to do like sack races and throw eggs and 2 legged races and rolling a hay bale that weighed freaking 300 pounds. At least i got 2 hamburgers and a bunch of chips out of it.
Speaking of food, im freaking hungry. But i dont feel like cooking at midnight. Maybe im lazy. Who knows? Tomorrow im supposed to help leita clean house.
Tonight i called nick and was talking to him about the drinking thing and i was crying and all upset and he didnt seem to be affected by it at all. He thought it was stupid for me to worry about that. Well what does he expect me to do? I cant help but worry about him. He's my baby. The one i love. The one i care about. The one im gonna spend the rest of my life with. I cant help that i love him and dont want anything bad to happen to him. Anyways, he was in the middle of playing Halo2 so he was like just call me tomorrow or something. So i guess thats what im going to do.
I've downloaded like 7 songs in like 10 minutes. This is awesome. I'll have to make me some cds out of the songs cuz i really wanted these songs. Yes, i know. I'm awesome!
Newayz, Nick was supposed to come to ft.smith on monday to look for a job but it turns out that he's prolly gonna stay down in mt.ida and help stacy with the chicken houses. I hope to god that he pays him because we really need the money. He prolly wont take it if he does give it to him anyways. Dingy boy!
Man this entry was pretty long. I'm quite proud of myself.
