One of the worst days of my life :(
Today has been such an awful day :( .. one of the worst days of my life. The viewing was last night. It sucked really bad.. it was totally sad seeing him dead :( The funeral was today. Nick came with me and held my hand throughout the whole funeral. I was crying real hard and angel was like "are you okay whit". It was the saddest funeral i've ever been too and it just made me think alot. I dont know if nick will ever know how much it meant to me for him to go with me.
On top of everything going on, nicks cousin has to go to Iraq on the 20th of this month. I feel bad for him but i didnt ask for him to go over there so nick needs to not take his crap out on me. Hes going down to stay with him for a week (prolly) and im not gonna get to see him and im barely gonna get to talk to him because Halo 2 comes out and they're buying it and they're gonna be playing it and he wont pay any attention to me when i call. IF i call. Just lets me know that im right when i say i love you more. Because i cant go without seeing him and talking to him. I dont want to. So i dont. But when it comes to him, he can go a week without seeing me or barely talking to me. It just upsets me. :(
Ruthies moving. :(. Saturday. So friday night i'm going to kristens and we're gonna go to the game and im gonna stay the night. Nick wont be there. He's going to Brians. I dont really care anymore. I always get hurt when i care.
I've had such an awful day. I'm gonna take my 2 pain pills and go to bed. That'll make me feel better. I'm sure.