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[babygirl1869]

Man I can feel myself slipping again... Nothing seems to make me happy anymore and I just don't understand it. There was a time when I was always so cheerful and giggly and now I'd rather curl up in my bed under my covers then to partake in the actual events of the world. If I didn't have to get out of bed to go to work, i probably would never leave it. I dunno... I'm just really down again. I'm beginning to feel like I am completely unlovable and it sucks. I can seem to hook everyone else up with great people, but when it comes down to it, I can never find anyone for me. You know I thought I wanted Kylie and then last night while I'm talking to him I realized that it's never gonna happen... so why even want? Yeah he's a great person... but he lives fucking a thousand miles away! He'd never be close enough for anything to happen and i doubt that even if he was that he'd give me a second thought. Why would he or anyone else? I have nothing to offer anyone... I guess I'm not much use to anyone...

I am here and you can see me... but can you see me dying inside? Do you even care?