Confused...
Ok I am soooooooooooooo freaking confused about everything that is going on in my head right now. I will say this again like I have before in past posts... I really REALLY like Kylie A LOT! Like if he lived here I would so try and pursue something with him, but he lives in Texas. This just sucks. The worst part of everything is that every guy I meet I seem to compare to him. Kylie’s attitude is so much better, Kylie’s cuter, Kylie’s more caring…blah blah blah! I even had a really hot guy hit on me the other night and every time I looked at him I thought about Kylie. This just sucks so extremely bad. I just wish that I could tell him all this and see what he says but then again I fear that if I do then we may not talk anymore, but then again part of me really doubts that. I mean like last night he calls me up to let me know he was home and all that and one of his first questions was “so are you still single?” I was like yeah so he was like “me too, when you coming to visit?” I was like what… then a little while later we were talking about not being with anyone for a while and he was like yeah… since you and I spent that night together I’ve only been with my ex once since then and it wasn’t worth it… I’ve decided I’m not going to lower my standards… so yeah that made me feel pretty good that there hasn’t really been anyone since he and I were up all night together. And besides that, he hit on me just as much that night as I did him, he’s the one who kissed me so I know there’s some type of attraction from him to me… I just wonder how deep it runs… This is so weird! I haven’t felt like this about a guy in a very long time and it’s very driving me crazy… who knows, maybe I should just fly out there and see how things go… I think that’s what I’m going to do, I need to get away anyways! Ok time to get some work done and try and get my mind off of this stuff…