i love you all so much- thanks for dealing with me as best u can lol
one more time, bc i dont think i can say it enough... i was jus thinking about how i treat ppl and deal with situations. and to be quite honest, i wasn't exactly thrilled when i realized how much pain i've caused ppl throughout my lifetime... especially this year, this week even. i say things out of frustration, things that i don't mean at all. but for some reason, and i'm not trying to make excuses for my actions, but for some reason when i get angry or sad or upset or hurt, etc. i let my emotions get the best of me. and i'm so so so so so sorry. for some reason, i never really got the message that said "hey sara, you act like the biggest jerk sometimes... stop" until today.
mary had told me flat out that when i say stuff like that, it gets on ppls nerves and stuff... and i read G's lj and stuff and i started ::gasp:: crying bc if i was one of those ppl, i dont think i could deal with myself. and i guess it's like what they say- the truth hurts. so thanks for tellin me straight up what's wrong with me... lol that sounded kinda strange. o well
this goes out to all of you. i love you all sooo much, words can't describe it. so amongst all this random babbling and whatnot, i guess what i'm trying to say is... thanks. =)