i fucking hate Christmas
i am having the most horrible week of my life. first Kayla, then monday i call Spig and she tells me we have to talk. so i know right there it wasn't good. she tells me she doesn't think its fair for us to be dating and live so far away from each other. she was the greatest thing to ever happen to me and i will never forget that. maybe one day we will be together. then tonight Shawn calls mother to tell her my Great Grandfather has died. we can't go home to the viewing orthe funeral cause of the fucking military. just because it wasn't my mothers grandfather. i am just sick and tired of everything. i haven't been able to sleep since last thursday. i cant eat anymore. i just feel sick constantly. i am just so homesick. fuck it