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I had a really conceptually dumb dream the other night, but the underlying meaning scares the crap out of me:
What if most of us don't really and truly want the person we're with, but would just rather not be lonely? Scarier still, what if we've convinced ourselves that we love them and wanna be with them?
This isn't the case for me, anyway, but it frightens the shit out of me that I might bond to someone in the end that just settles for what they have.
It appears that I have this overwhelming fear of being replaceable.
Meanwhile, I'm having the hardest time figuring out how to use footnotes in a research paper for art history. I'm hoping my magnificent display of bullshit will cloud the judgement of my poor little-old-Austrian-grandma professor. Oh shit that reminds me, I have to research Parkinson's disease today too...
God I want Summer to be here. At least then all the fun people will come home. Oh well...at least in this weather when you wake up in the morning covered in whipped cream from the night before, there's no oppressive heat to make the situation worse. ...That happens to everyone, right?
ughghghgh damn damn damn
What if most of us don't really and truly want the person we're with, but would just rather not be lonely? Scarier still, what if we've convinced ourselves that we love them and wanna be with them?
This isn't the case for me, anyway, but it frightens the shit out of me that I might bond to someone in the end that just settles for what they have.
It appears that I have this overwhelming fear of being replaceable.
Meanwhile, I'm having the hardest time figuring out how to use footnotes in a research paper for art history. I'm hoping my magnificent display of bullshit will cloud the judgement of my poor little-old-Austrian-grandma professor. Oh shit that reminds me, I have to research Parkinson's disease today too...
God I want Summer to be here. At least then all the fun people will come home. Oh well...at least in this weather when you wake up in the morning covered in whipped cream from the night before, there's no oppressive heat to make the situation worse. ...That happens to everyone, right?
ughghghgh damn damn damn