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I'm so incredibly happy.
I had the best, most relaxed day with Garrison EVER in which neither of us had a single thing to do all day. We lay in bed for an hour after we woke up and just rolled around like puppies, talking and laughing, we drank margaritas and spent the entire afternoon downtown at Powells. Even something as dumb as a trolly ride was fun today. Lately when we talk or joke about anything it feels like...like complete balance in all things. Like everything we say just fits together in some cosmic display of witty banter. People on the street sometimes stop and brighten up or say something nice when they see us behaving like little kids in love. He's my jungle gym, my crush, my friend and my love.
I think one of the best parts of today was when I realized how happy I've been for a considerably sustained period of time. And for the first time I am unconditionally happy. I have no fears of the future and no inhibitions left. All I feel is this contentment with the nebulousness of the future, and this unrestrained and totally raw joy without a catch.
I'm feeling very well balanced on my own.
I had the best, most relaxed day with Garrison EVER in which neither of us had a single thing to do all day. We lay in bed for an hour after we woke up and just rolled around like puppies, talking and laughing, we drank margaritas and spent the entire afternoon downtown at Powells. Even something as dumb as a trolly ride was fun today. Lately when we talk or joke about anything it feels like...like complete balance in all things. Like everything we say just fits together in some cosmic display of witty banter. People on the street sometimes stop and brighten up or say something nice when they see us behaving like little kids in love. He's my jungle gym, my crush, my friend and my love.
I think one of the best parts of today was when I realized how happy I've been for a considerably sustained period of time. And for the first time I am unconditionally happy. I have no fears of the future and no inhibitions left. All I feel is this contentment with the nebulousness of the future, and this unrestrained and totally raw joy without a catch.
I'm feeling very well balanced on my own.