scared of a lot of things
i'm back at the point where i'm afraid of a lot of things. you're always scared of SOMETHING, whether you admit it or not.
right now it's the fear of committing. i'm going to get hurt again, this i know. because it wouldn't be worth an effort if there was a chance of getting hurt. there is such a thing as something being too good, or something going too well. it just means a harder fall when it comes down to it.
someone told me once that i was just in it for the chase. to be honest, the chase is a lot of fun. i'm not going to lie even a little bit about that. usually, when i get someone i want, i already want to move on.
this time, i'm caught between two people. both are very likely to break my heart. both will again shatter the broken heart i just put back together. yet i'm still wanting to take that chance. i don't quite know why.
i recently got in a car accident that's left me scared to really leave my house. it wasn't that big of a deal, but i'm sure there was some help to ease the pain.
anyway, my eyes are really heavy right now, and my stomach hurts. i'll continue this another day...and i'll be more collected. i'm scared, confused, and depressed.
right now it's the fear of committing. i'm going to get hurt again, this i know. because it wouldn't be worth an effort if there was a chance of getting hurt. there is such a thing as something being too good, or something going too well. it just means a harder fall when it comes down to it.
someone told me once that i was just in it for the chase. to be honest, the chase is a lot of fun. i'm not going to lie even a little bit about that. usually, when i get someone i want, i already want to move on.
this time, i'm caught between two people. both are very likely to break my heart. both will again shatter the broken heart i just put back together. yet i'm still wanting to take that chance. i don't quite know why.
i recently got in a car accident that's left me scared to really leave my house. it wasn't that big of a deal, but i'm sure there was some help to ease the pain.
anyway, my eyes are really heavy right now, and my stomach hurts. i'll continue this another day...and i'll be more collected. i'm scared, confused, and depressed.