bitch bitch bitch bitch BITCH!!!!!!!!!!
let me just say...ashley can suck cock and go to hell.
in my myspace blog, i was saying how there are some people who never let you fail. these are the same people who will never really see you succeed. i say this because i have fallen flat on my face, it hurt like hell, but i learned from it. with that awful awful fall came experience and a switch went on and said "oh shit, can't do that again!" i didn't have SHIT handed to me. everything i have is MINE. i own everything i use, wear, eat, everything. i didn't inherit money, i didn't have rich friends for a long time, and i sure as FUCK don't have a dad who will buy a fucking house for me. i'm not jealous of that, by all means i don't want my dad to buy me a house simply because i did nothing to deserve that.
i'm so pissed because i see that ashley, dee, and joy will never learn. why do i care? i don't care as far as if they fall flat on their faces. i think i want, more than anything, to see the misery in their eyes when life DOES smack them in the face. when they hit rock bottom like i did and hate life. when the future looks so bleak that they can't seem to breathe. i won't see that misery any time soon. but damnit i can't wait to see the day, assuming i'm even thinking about them then.
and to throw something else in the mix, ashley is dating megan. FUCK. THAT. i'm instantly sick to my stomache. first of all, they've always had a thing for each other, so yeah go right ahead, "break another piece of my heart". the upside to all this is that one of these days, megan will cheat on ashley and she will eventually find out. megan has a hard time keeping her pants on. and i sure as fuck can't see megan bonding with joslyn like i did. then again, i was just a fucked up chapter in ashley's life. so they can go off and have their disgusting relationship. then comes the day that megan cheats on her and ashley finds out...or ashley does her usual stupid "not communicating" number, the shit will hit the fan.
i'm not even going to be sorry i'm saying this. i'm not going to say that this is horrible of me to think. so damnit, i CANNOT WAIT to see the day when misery occupies ashley's face...and it lasts and lasts. i hope her heart gets broken. i hope she cries herself to sleep at night forever. i hope joslyn grows up to be a little hellian and tells her mom to fuck off because she learns that from mommy. i can't wait to see the day that dee and joy are so miserable with their own lives and each other that it's unbearable. i cannot WAIT to see all those fuckers hating life to no end.
i can't wait til then because i know i will be much happier than that. i fell on my face and learned from it without hand outs or a helping hand, other than emotional and mental support from friends and family (amazingly that's all it took). i will be happy then, i'll have a good head on my shoulders, my head will be out of my ass...and i'll be with someone who cares for me and loves me for ME, not for who they want me to be. i won't be settling then.
goddamnit, when will these ignorant, arrogant, childish, stupid fucking dykes learn that life doesn't happen this way and works out fine?????????? it fucking doesn't. life hurts. it sucks. it fucks you again and again. and when you scream for mercy it only gets worse.
i don't feel horrible about thinking these things. i don't regret it. i fucking hate them. i don't wish death or a horrible path of life for anyone...but these people just changed that.
in my myspace blog, i was saying how there are some people who never let you fail. these are the same people who will never really see you succeed. i say this because i have fallen flat on my face, it hurt like hell, but i learned from it. with that awful awful fall came experience and a switch went on and said "oh shit, can't do that again!" i didn't have SHIT handed to me. everything i have is MINE. i own everything i use, wear, eat, everything. i didn't inherit money, i didn't have rich friends for a long time, and i sure as FUCK don't have a dad who will buy a fucking house for me. i'm not jealous of that, by all means i don't want my dad to buy me a house simply because i did nothing to deserve that.
i'm so pissed because i see that ashley, dee, and joy will never learn. why do i care? i don't care as far as if they fall flat on their faces. i think i want, more than anything, to see the misery in their eyes when life DOES smack them in the face. when they hit rock bottom like i did and hate life. when the future looks so bleak that they can't seem to breathe. i won't see that misery any time soon. but damnit i can't wait to see the day, assuming i'm even thinking about them then.
and to throw something else in the mix, ashley is dating megan. FUCK. THAT. i'm instantly sick to my stomache. first of all, they've always had a thing for each other, so yeah go right ahead, "break another piece of my heart". the upside to all this is that one of these days, megan will cheat on ashley and she will eventually find out. megan has a hard time keeping her pants on. and i sure as fuck can't see megan bonding with joslyn like i did. then again, i was just a fucked up chapter in ashley's life. so they can go off and have their disgusting relationship. then comes the day that megan cheats on her and ashley finds out...or ashley does her usual stupid "not communicating" number, the shit will hit the fan.
i'm not even going to be sorry i'm saying this. i'm not going to say that this is horrible of me to think. so damnit, i CANNOT WAIT to see the day when misery occupies ashley's face...and it lasts and lasts. i hope her heart gets broken. i hope she cries herself to sleep at night forever. i hope joslyn grows up to be a little hellian and tells her mom to fuck off because she learns that from mommy. i can't wait to see the day that dee and joy are so miserable with their own lives and each other that it's unbearable. i cannot WAIT to see all those fuckers hating life to no end.
i can't wait til then because i know i will be much happier than that. i fell on my face and learned from it without hand outs or a helping hand, other than emotional and mental support from friends and family (amazingly that's all it took). i will be happy then, i'll have a good head on my shoulders, my head will be out of my ass...and i'll be with someone who cares for me and loves me for ME, not for who they want me to be. i won't be settling then.
goddamnit, when will these ignorant, arrogant, childish, stupid fucking dykes learn that life doesn't happen this way and works out fine?????????? it fucking doesn't. life hurts. it sucks. it fucks you again and again. and when you scream for mercy it only gets worse.
i don't feel horrible about thinking these things. i don't regret it. i fucking hate them. i don't wish death or a horrible path of life for anyone...but these people just changed that.