Today
Last night I was up til 4:30 in the morning talking to my baby girl. Damn. We got off the phone round 4:45. She had to get up early I didn't get up til about 6:30. I don't like getting up early anymore. School was okay. I had chem lab so I was happy. It was fun. My partner Brittany made fun of me because I looked soo small because my apron was like a dress it went down to my ankles but on her [she's taller than me] it was up to her knees. It was funny. We had to wear goggles too. Omg my teacher was teaching us what not to do to start the bunson burner with this intrument [sparker] and she held it striaght up and down and she singed her pinky. hahaah. It was soooo funny but she was in pain. I went to talk to her while my partner was starting the sparkler and she's like I can't believe I did that. I felt bad but haha. Then after that history it was boring. I couldn't pay attention. I got a fucking 64% on this quiz we took on the chapter we read sections 1 & 2. I'm bad at History. I couldn't wait until vo tech. Then on the bus Nelcy handed me a latin cd so I'm going to burn it. It's soooo good. It has the song Glenny was making me listen to it.
Today I went to target with my mom and I go I hope my package came in. I told her what was coming in and I go you can't stop me from trying something and she goes then you better be moving out. we went our seperate ways in the store I got my boxers and she got her things. Just enought time to cool down. I was looking at the travel things with her and I was looking for after shave and then everything was okay. We were good again. Then we went in the car and on the way to giant to pick up vickie I go I want to at least be able to say I tried it and if I don't like it then I won't do it and she understood. She was talking about how Aunt Lisha went through all this when they were kids. Then when we were in the parking lot of giant she's like be happy with who you are and that you aren't mentally handikap or even sick in any way. She said you should be happy your alive and that you have two legs because we [mom and dad] thought I would never be able to walk again or even function correctly [brain damage] but thank god I thank the lord that I'm here and that I'm save and healthy. I'm happy that I was put into this world and that I was strong enough to overcome the meningitis. When we got home my mom goes Thank you for talking to me and please keep it up. It was a really good conversation and I really stood my ground to make her actually see where I was coming from.
I miss my baby girl it feels like soooo long since I have talked to her but really I was talking to her right before and during when I was going to Target. She was asking me quiz questions. I wanted to finish but my mom wanted me off the phone and she punched me in the arm and made a stern face. haha. that face is always a charm. ;-) so I got off the phone. Then my mom goes how can you love someone you don't know. I tried to explain but it didn't work because my mom never had a long distant relationship I told her that it's all feelings that you feel like a connection.
Kayla and I are getting closer as friends. She's a really cool girl. She's a 10th grade and is at my vo tech. I'm helping her right now with her project paper. I'm not quiet sure if she's gay or not she's giving me mixed signals. but I'm not looking for someone to be with I'm looking for a true friend. I saw this birl at vo tech too I thought I was the only one but I'm not it made me feel happy too.
Well I apoligize for any of my drama but a journal is for venting and that's what I'm doing if you don't like it then don't read it No one is making you.
I Love U Ashley
-Trey