Strangle Me
I'm sooo close of just giving up...
Sandy and I were talking on the phone. I was talking about what's going to happen between us and she was like I gotta go. I go know I'm not done talking to you. I go do you just want to stop before it gets any harder for us because it's going to. She told me she's falling deeper each time. I don't want to hurt her but I never see her. Nor talk to her. I asked her over the summer if she would sneak out and she goes I can't. She leaves me no other chance. Than to just let her go and try to watch her walk away out of my life. :tears roll down my cheek: It hurts sooooo bad to hurt myself and see her hurt. She cut again and i even asked her. She said no. And then she told me on the phone it's from Friday and I go is this the first time I saw it she goes yeah. I got mad because she lied to me.
I hate life right now. I was scheduled to work yesterday and I called monday saying I couldn't work and Wayne told Sandy that I'm fired and I just called my work. And the manager Kelly answered and I go I wasn't supposed to come in yesterday because i told Tom monday that I couldn't work because I was taking my sister to Bloomsburg. And I even reminded Tom saturday night that I couldn't come in. She was being all mean to me saying "so you no showed" I'm like "no I called monday and said i couldn't"
...take me from this misery...
.X. hold me and never let me go .X.