i swear that i could go on forever
and the days pass without hesitation, sometimes i wish for a rewind or a pause button to keep me sane. its all moving by so rapidly- like quicksand slipping carelessly through my fingers. and i dont know whether to stay put or move along with it; it scares me to death though. with every new face, and every passing experience, i lose sight of whats right or wrong, lose more of myself and slowly lose the people around me. i don't know where to turn anymore, and i dont know who to believe. when those closest to me abuse me, all i can do is let them- i dont know any other way to be.