i breathe in, i breathe out
hey pimpsss.
k well things have been pretty good lately, but I'm sick =(
I have a cold, which makes my nose all stuffy + my head killsss. Oh well though.
I didn't go to school today because I didn't feel good.
I ended up going out for a little bit though.
Jane got me, and we went to Ryan's where some people were.. the end.
I was in comfy clothes + slippers, no make up, my hair all frizzy + whatever.
It was amazinggg, and so much faster to get ready.
I figured whatever because we weren't meeting anyone there that I feel the need to try impressing.
I'm going to school tomarrow though.
If I didn't then I'd fail from attendance, which sucks.
There's less than 10 school days left though, and I'm so excited!
I know that half way through the summer I might get bored, but still.
I got my progress report over the weekend and I'm doing pretty well, so that's good.
I need to do reallyyyy good on my finals though.
Then I got my schedule all figured out for next year (well mostly),
and besides seminar I might have one gym class for one semester.
Then all the rest of my classes are gonna be academics.
That's gonna suck, but oh well. I'll pull it off!
Hmmmmm..
This summer I need to get a job.
I need to take the second segment of drivers training too,
and I wanna do a lot of volunteer work.. dono why, but I really really do.
Jane and I are going to start jogging/running.
That's good.
I need to get in shape for summer.
I also need to stop listening to people's shit.
My mom and I talked about this all (of course) because I run to her with everything.
Anyways, she was very blunt,
and told me that I need to start paying more attention to what I believe is true,
than to what people say is true.
She's sooo right. I need to start trusting my own judgement,
and stop paying so much attention to everything that I hear from everything.
A lottt of people have been talking shit lately about things.
Why.. I dono. It's dumb though.
I've been being stupid by listening to everything.
Now that I've realized that all, I actually feel a lot better.
She also told me that I need to stop thinking back into the past so much.
About what I regret doing, about what other people may have did wrong, etc.
She's right about that also.
I can't change things that have happened in the past no matter how much I'd like or want to.
Geez.. what would I do without her.
Honestly,
I wanna be able to just live life by the day and take chances.
It sounds like it'd be amazing.
I dono.
I realized yesterday that I need to stop holding grudges,
and start forgiving.
I mean, what good does it do?
Life's too short.
Besides this stuff.. good news!
We're gonna start painting the upstairs soon!
I'm excited.
So yeahhh.
I need to start tanning because I'm really white.
I wanna go to the movies.
There's like a million movies that I wanna see.
Half day Fridayyy,
and no school Mondayyy.
K.. well there's not much else that I have to write about. I'm gonna go readdd because Nicholas Sparks is an amazing writer!
So comment if you want!
xox
I didn’t mean it when I said
I didn’t love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should have let you go
I didn’t know nothing,
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn’t have fathomed
I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I’d be sitting
Here beside myself
cause I didn’t know you
cause I didn’t know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I’m feeling
Now that I don’t hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don’t have a choice
Oh what I wouldn’t give
To have you lying by my side
Right here cause baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together
I can’t sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack’s on the radio
Singing to me “If You Think You’re Lonely Now”
Wait a minute this is too deep,too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial tryin’ to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
“I Only Think Of You” and it’s breakin’ my heart
I’m tryin’ to keep it together but I’m falling apart
I’m feeling all out of my element
Throwing things, crying tryin’
To figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain’t even half of what I’m feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together
Mariah Carey is amazing. =)