an update on me u wouldn't understand
so here i am trying to type for the first time in ages...it is hard though I got fake nails on...gosh golly I feel so girly...it's just not me! anywho wow glad we got to talk. you know I have missed you KT I really have... wowo have I missed that girl oh so much! as for the other I can't believe that you called! 5 times huh...wow-we! I know that you said that you wanted to be friends and you missed me, but as soon as she was around with that shit eat grin you never said a word...of course I didn't either, neither that nor did I give you a chance really, but still. I miss you oh so much, I really do. But it was funny I had a dream recently about future times, and you weren't there. Now I don't know if it's because I didn't think you would be or you didn't want to be. but man do I miss kissing you. hehe, you know it was funny that night we drank last week, and I feel asleep, but when I woke up it was you sitting there by the bed waiting.. now I wasn't getting sick or making a mess of anything, just lying alone asleep. you know what it reminded me of? It reminded of that one other time you took care of me, member? ecxept I dunno the rest of that night I got an impression that you missed what I missed even though you said that it would never be the same. well I am done babling now I have bronchitis and an gonna go to sleep. but even though you will never see this (cause lets face it no one reads these nemore) just do me one thing "and if in the end we no longer speak always treasure what we had and remember" Love,Ash*