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Parents.. sheesh.
They stress me out so much. I never just go up to them and ask them to take me a million places, you know? And today I need to get my check cashed and I wanted to go to Best Buy and a few other places.. so I go in my parents room this morning to see if they're going anywhere near where I want to go so it wouldn't be too far out of their way to take me. So my mom's getting her hair cut. That is convienently located near the bank and Best Buy. So I asked her to take me to those places if I go along with her. She said it was okay, and you know, my dad was in the room and he's been a reall poohead lately. As I was thinking about being at the haircutting place, I realized I should probably be needing one soon. It's been awhile. I mentioned that to my mom and my dad got real mad. "Why do you always ask for too mcuh!" stuff like that. I don't! Geeze. He makes me feel so bad about myself, so does my mom. I try not to be too much of a burden to them, but no matter what it always seems like I am. My mom also always critisizes me. I feel like I can't do anything right, while at the same time, I strive to be a real good kid. I tell my dad about how many people are all into drugs and alcohal and sex at this young age. And I tell him how well I've resisted the temptation. He says he trusts me... but somehow that's hard to believe. Yes to a certain extent, but he doesn't let boys go into my bedroom? That's where everything is at. Almost. He wouldn't even let Brandon in there when him and I were best friends, and he was over here all the time. Well I guess I just can't comprehend what his intentions are, and I try to understand and I ask him. But that still doesn't help me understand any better. I feel so stupid. I want to understand everything, bt I just can't.
And I really want to go shopping! I need some new pants and I'm real tired of my shirts cause it seems like I don't get many new things. Now that I'm making money, I don't have time to spend it! There will always be spring break, but Jade won't be around to go shopping with. :( All I've been buying lately is CDs. I have most of the songs from them. haha, how weird am I?
They stress me out so much. I never just go up to them and ask them to take me a million places, you know? And today I need to get my check cashed and I wanted to go to Best Buy and a few other places.. so I go in my parents room this morning to see if they're going anywhere near where I want to go so it wouldn't be too far out of their way to take me. So my mom's getting her hair cut. That is convienently located near the bank and Best Buy. So I asked her to take me to those places if I go along with her. She said it was okay, and you know, my dad was in the room and he's been a reall poohead lately. As I was thinking about being at the haircutting place, I realized I should probably be needing one soon. It's been awhile. I mentioned that to my mom and my dad got real mad. "Why do you always ask for too mcuh!" stuff like that. I don't! Geeze. He makes me feel so bad about myself, so does my mom. I try not to be too much of a burden to them, but no matter what it always seems like I am. My mom also always critisizes me. I feel like I can't do anything right, while at the same time, I strive to be a real good kid. I tell my dad about how many people are all into drugs and alcohal and sex at this young age. And I tell him how well I've resisted the temptation. He says he trusts me... but somehow that's hard to believe. Yes to a certain extent, but he doesn't let boys go into my bedroom? That's where everything is at. Almost. He wouldn't even let Brandon in there when him and I were best friends, and he was over here all the time. Well I guess I just can't comprehend what his intentions are, and I try to understand and I ask him. But that still doesn't help me understand any better. I feel so stupid. I want to understand everything, bt I just can't.
And I really want to go shopping! I need some new pants and I'm real tired of my shirts cause it seems like I don't get many new things. Now that I'm making money, I don't have time to spend it! There will always be spring break, but Jade won't be around to go shopping with. :( All I've been buying lately is CDs. I have most of the songs from them. haha, how weird am I?