VERY mushy.... if u can't handle mushyness then don't read
OK I haven't stopped smiling since Thursday at 1:45 pm. and here's the story. some of its sorta funny, sorta bad, or really romantic.
Thursday at 10 am my brother and I left for Houghton Lake to meet a friend of mine. His name is Brian as you read in my last entry. So after a detour in Pontiac, 15 minute rest stop, and then getting lost on S. Houghton Lake Rd., we finally got to Brian's uncles at 1:45. We couldn't check into our cabin until 2 so we spent some time there. It was a lil awkward at first cuz everyone was so quiet but we finally started talking. We went inside and things were still a lil quiet and then Tommy brings up something him and Brian were talking about, which led to them playing Halo 2. oh yeah, Brian got me flowers but at this point only gave me one of the roses. when me and tommy got back form checking into our cabin i got the rest of the flowers and the beautiful glass vase with hearts on it. but ne ways Brian was really nervous around Tommy and felt like he couldn't be myself so he asked Tommy if he minded if me and him went for a walk. The second time we went for a walk he grabbed my hand and we held hands and walked the rest of the way. Tommy kept sending me messages on my fone tho to make sure everything was ok. I understand that he was nervous and yeah he's my big bro so he was lookin out for me but he was bein a lil too protective. so yeah me and Brian had a bet going that he wouldn't be able to last until 9 o'clock without kissing me. Well, he proved me wrong. He waited until 11 actually. And that is when the surprise occured. Brian had made a CD for me with a bunch of love songs that he thought I woud like. He did a really good job too. But he took me outside and had candles lit in the driveway while the CD played and we danced. The sky was clear and u could see the moon and stars. That is when he kissed me. it was so great. I Do by 98 Degrees was the first song we danced, kissed, and hugged to so that became our song. We danced for like almost an hour until my legs went weak and i could barely walk. so then we blew out all the candles and turned the CD off and he carried me on his back up the stairs and into the house. we watched tv for a while and then i fell asleep on the matress on the floor. Brian slept a lil farther over on the matress and tommy slept at the foot of the matress. I woke up at like 5:30 because Brian had to go let the dog out. when he came in a rolled over towards him and curled up in his arms and he kissed me and said good morning babe. it was so sweet. so then i fell asleep in his arms.
NOW its Friday morning and things are going good. but then things go bad. Brian's uncle was out of town and said that it was ok that me and tommy stayed the night there. but his grandparents weren't aware of that and stopped by. I was in the bathroom but his grandparents went phsycho and was like get em out. so me and tommy went to the cabin to put the flowers there and then went and got somethin to eat. later on Brian called and told us his grandparents said we could come back and stay. Well, Tommy didn't want to but he did for me. He wouldn't stay the night tho. so we stayed until 8 and then headed back the cabin. i hated having to say good-night and good-bye to him. I started to cry knowing that I wouldn't get to see him for a while.
So Tommy and I spent the rest of the night at the cabin up all night talking and stuff. but when i went to go to bed it didn't feel right with Brian's arm not around me. I started to cry.
I then cried on the way home because I miss him so much. He's the greatest guy and he makes me so happy. I haven't been this happy in like forever.
what I really like about him tho, is he's not afraid to show his sensitive side. He writes me poems all the time. here are a couple of them:
*one so beautiful I cant compare to anything even if I try that would be like sayin the truth but be a lie so I will say the truth in which I know one so beautiful I would never want to let her go
*just like a clock my heart skips a beat for every second I do so ever weep until the time comes I will forever cry until one day it will be u and I then my pain will stop an I will finally see there was no need to cry when u were right there in front of me
*Ill dry ur tears when ur sad because ur beautiful smile makes so happy I cant bear to even see just that one beautiful tear roll down that graceful face anything to make u happy an not cry I want to be with u soo badly to just wipe that tear from those gorgeous eyes
*U can see me whenever u want to just forget me an ill stay with u in ur heart an maby in ur dreams 1 day with us togeather felt like an eternity just one night but still it came to an end but my love for u wont never end so just remember as long as we love each other well be together
*I may not be rich I may not be powerful but with u im rich with your love and powerful with u by my side and my love for u shows no end so I promise whats mine will be yours money cars a house whatever I have I give to u but ouy of all that I give u my heart and vow that thru good and bad I will never let us slip apart from this moment when I say I do I will never ever stop loving u so sealed with a kiss or a exspensive ring your love to me is priceless so in my eyes that mean everything so my vow is over and now me and my beautiful bride,mybeautiful wife can being our amzing new life
and then there was the poem he wrote me on the card he made for me. he drew it out and everything. at the top there's a blonde angel crying with a flower in her hand. under it, there's a rose, a heart, a broken heart put together, 2 dolphins on the side (cuz he knows I love em) and then it says love under it. the poem is called Last Forever and here it is:
Forever I will try to make you happy, as long as im by your side i'll protect you from the bad and anything that will make my beautiful angel sad. Forever I will love you starting this night thru thick and thin my love for you will now begin, just take my hand and ill hold you forever tight. lay your beautiful head on my shoulder so we can begin our night which i hope will never end. Forever my girl my friend, never will a tear fall from those gorgeous eyes again. if one does ill be there to show you that i will always care, i hope you feel the same, because everyday i want to say your beautiful name. so please say you feel the same so this night will last "last forever" in my heart and mind.
so then today we're talking and everything and we're talking about whats gonna happen with us living so far away yet not wanting to be with ne one else and he's like Courtney I Love you. will you go out with me? even tho we live far away
I said yes because you know what, I'm not letting a lil distance seperate me from the one who makes me truely happy.
but now im on the fone with him but scroll ur mouse over the paragraphs and u might find a link that has some pictures of me and him from this weekend.