! 2OO5 !
wednesday: went to brads @ like 8pm ish & chilled w.him n luke for awhile, we smoked up goood oman, i was so high by the time everyone else got there i dont even member who came first but bizzle & her boy came, sarah & jen & kevin, andd shae. oh and sammy ! how could i forget hah.
anyway everytime someone would show up we'd smoek again and i was gettin picked up @ like 12pm so i was madd paranoid. it was fun tho..i sware brads house has a new piece like every day haha, its awesome =P
i was so happy to see sammy, but we didn't really get to talk or anything b4 i had to go.
thursday: went to the mall til close n when i got home sammy had called but i didnt call him back.. i dono im just like that sometimes? then brad called around 1030 wanting to come pick me up n go to his house again but it was too late to just then be goin over ..fuckin stupid ass dad wont let me sleep over [even tho i have a shit load of times b4 that he dont kno about shh =)]
friday: new years eve baby! woo last night was awesommee i went around 9pm to brads.. soo many ppl were there.. it was pretty crowded but it was fun. shaes g/f and her friend were fCkin bitches tho n so we locked them out lmao.. they got a ride home thank God. i met some new ladys who seem to be pretty cool n not all bitchy like most girls at dover high. brads g/f doesnt smoke or nuthin tho, and shes kinda wierd.. (tammie: shes not even that cute! unless u get really realllly stoned haha i was like wait.. thats ur g/f?? =X)
anyyway sam was tryin to hold hands n all that but i am sooo uncomfortable with PDA ..i dono what it is.. one on one id prolly be doin w.e with that boy, but it freaks me out when ppl like watch.. hm. but i did kiss him for the new yr. n cuddled a lil.. man i soo wish i coulda slept over but ill make a plan next time.
Oh n when we were all hittin off the 3 footer luke is like YEAHH rahshell's got it! omgawd..freak. sometimes when i go over there.. expesially when its like me n just guys i feel so akward.. i mean i love bein around guys bcuz i get along w.them so much better than girls but when i smoke i feel like they think of takin advantage of me..which they prob. do ..lol this is why i dont like to pass out.. liek w.tom -ew. tammie i need u there so we can look out for eachother again -miss u
my dad is like positive that i go over there to smoke or drink, but im like no daddy i just want to mingle haha. owell, im being good, sorta ..its not like im pregnant or some stupid shit.. i can handle myself n i kno my limits, he'll see that eventually. but oh its crazy when he picks me up from there.. we have some good father daughter talks..but i dont remember 1 damn word.. ahh thats how it should be.
today i dono what im doin i wana hang out w.sam, and not a bunch of other people so hopefully that will happen. if not then im def. doin somethin monday night ..ill tell brad that sam and i are going over..n then brad will pass out n ..u kno the rest.
hope u all had a great new years eve <333