i never write in here but i felt like venting
fuck.my life is really shitty right now.i feel like i have no friends anymore..but maybe thats a good thing cuz most everyone is shit anyways.some people need to stop being so selfish really..they try and cover it up by other stuff but i can see through them.its fucken gay as shit.im staying at andrews right now but of course its weird cuz hes my ex and its just a weird situation.soon im gunna go stay at my grandmas and get a job ..i know ill be drinking and smoking a whole hell of a lot less ..even tho im gunna hate it alot i guess its a little kick in the ass for me to get my shit together,get a job and move out..plus my mom and sister are staying at my grandmas so i get to be with them.my mom is completely sober and out of rehab she has 30 something days clean now and while she gets her life back together im gunna get mine together and were gunna get a place soon and i can finally have my own room...something ive never had in my whole life.i really miss my brother and his girlfriend angela alot..i remember all the fun times we had at our old apartment..we did so much crazy shit hahaa ..whenever i think i have no friends left in the world and im feeling my saddest i always think of them and know i always have people that care about me.im being so emotional but we all know thats the nature of the crab.im crying right now because i miss you guys(david and angela) and because im just so depressed with everything going on in my life.i know i cant give up on life though because i know there are greater things for me ahead i just have to make shit happen.i just hope i can do it fast im sick of being in this rut and feeling so completely helpless.i just need my spirits lifted a little bit..and the world needs to stop being so damn complicated.