Skipping Spanish...
Right now, I am in my math class. Sadly, I don't have much time to talk. But I can say that one of my crushes, I can't state his name right now, actually answers to me now. I feel less and less tension. His ex on again off again girlfriend (Maybe now you know who I'm talking about) is sitting right next to be flirting up a storm. They were getting pretty close until I bursted in I was hoping not to look too obvious. I cannot wait until my party when all of his attention will be upon me. In fact, that other girl won't even be there.
My heart melts everytime I look at him, even though he doesn't like me one bit.
Unrequited Love is a biotch.
I dont even know why do I care? It's not like he's going to my high school. But I would've liked to have gone out with him at least once before separating. I dont know, maybe something might spark up during my party long enough to ignite some sort of flame. Maybe we have a connection that he is afraid to act upon because of my color. Or I think it might be the way that I act kind of crazy sometimes. I think he would be afraid to announce to other people that I went out with him.
It doesn't matter, I can always admire from afar, it's what I've been doing with him for the past three years. Everytime he passes me, I feel extreme love and agony. It's like, hanging something right in front of you that you want so badly, but you know you can't have. *Sigh* Sometimes I wish I were white. Unless there is something else that can convince him. Don't get me wrong, I dont want to die, I just think it might've been easier on my emotions than having to deal with seeing the one you want so badly not return your same feelings for them.
But Ben is making me feel better. He is very funny, I think I might actually be able to go on today without sulking with hurt feelings.
Fawn is also helping out by just being herself. She makes me laugh
Fawn:shawna is a dork and chris brown is a dork, they deserve each other
That was Fawn typing.
He's over there laughing, while my heart is over here, breaking.
"Tall and tan and young and handsome the boy from Impanema goes walking and when he passes, each one he passes goes "ah"
*Shai May*