Update...
The more I write.. the better I feel.
I don't feel like I am carrying it all so much. Like I am typing it out and setting it free...
As people are asking questions,.. I am typing out the information of where I was and what I was feeling at the time.
Trouble is,.. it is all disjointed and all over the place.
As you can tell,.. it was a terribly horrifying experience and trying to avoid it has not been working for me. I have been carrying it for far to long. I don't know that I will even have peace with it but,.. putting it down and letting it go is a first step on a long journey of healing and I need to.
I need to put things down so I can breath and find me again.
I don't feel like I am carrying it all so much. Like I am typing it out and setting it free...
As people are asking questions,.. I am typing out the information of where I was and what I was feeling at the time.
Trouble is,.. it is all disjointed and all over the place.
As you can tell,.. it was a terribly horrifying experience and trying to avoid it has not been working for me. I have been carrying it for far to long. I don't know that I will even have peace with it but,.. putting it down and letting it go is a first step on a long journey of healing and I need to.
I need to put things down so I can breath and find me again.